Scribbles

Moving!~

2008-12-24T01:27:00.000-08:00

I've decided to move my blog... ^^ It should be easier for me to maintain since I have other blogs in the same location... I'm not willing to give out the address to just anyone though so... ^^ Yeah~ That's it... By this time tomorrow, Scribbles would have moved~ ^^

New hobby

2008-12-11T08:46:00.000-08:00

I've just gotten a hobby... About a month ago... I begged my mum to bring me to the place where they teach you how to knit... I used to say it in those exact words too... "Bring me to the place where they teach you how to knit..."

My mum ended up learning with me and now were both knit freaks... I've recently finished two projects of mine, both scarves and am currently starting my third one~ ^^

I wanna move on from scarves to hats now and probably mittens after that~ Lol.. But now I'm just gonna experiment with scarves first~ ^^

PIC OF THE DAY!

2008-12-11T08:29:00.000-08:00

PIC OF THE DAY

This was today... 11.12.08 after our 3rd day f caroling~ ^^ Super fun.. We were walking home when we noticed that there were no cars on the road. SO we seized the oppurtunity and lay down on the road.... XD I'm in one of the other pictures~ Though I don't have it yet... It'll be up soon...

People in the picture: Daryl (standing),Fred (sitting), Sam, Raimo and Terrence (all lying down) and Patrick (the one with the guitar)

Updates~ 1#

2008-12-11T08:11:00.000-08:00

There's no denying that I haven't been updating as much as I should be... This is a blog after all, and I'm guilty of leaving it unattended for so long... ^^ It's been months....

It's not like there's nothing interesting going on in my life... There's loads of stuff going on actually that I haven't been able to write down everything! My life is just one big ball of fun and drama.. ^^

Okay... So... remember the pic of the two hands with a spade and a heart on them? That was taken when Unnie and I (together with Mar) were working on the layout for the Merdeka thing about 4 months ago... Honestly, I wasn't too thrilled about doing the layout, but it was the only way we could cut class without being convicted, besides we could fool around and do whatever we wanted... ^^

Below are just some of the things they had me draw up to decorate the hall... Not like I'm proud of it or anything... There are actually 3 but I really don't like uploading photos on blogspot.. It's damn annoying.... -.-

Anyway, I drew an Indian, a Malay and a Chinese... ^^ All the 3 main races in Malaysia... It's to show unity and diversity and crap... I know the drawings are a little too animated, but it was the best I could do under short notice... (we only started decorating a day before the event took place). The teachers seemed okay with it though... ^^

Sadly, I never got to see the finished product... I didn't attend the Merdeka thing cause it was intruding on my Saturday morning TV time... Besides it was dumb and we had to sing an equally dumb song...

I wasn't going to miss my show for anything... ^^

Second Thoughts

2008-10-27T06:31:00.000-07:00

Being free isn't what it's cracked up to be.... O_O I'm bored to death with going online everyday and staying up till the sun rises. The routine is getting a little old. Now, if only I could drive.... I would be able to go out by myself and have fun. Though where would I go?

Driving all the way to Mile 4 seems like a waste of time and gas. So it seems to me, staying home and going online is the only option I have....

Now I have some Caroling stuff to attend to... The guys wanted to vote for me as a leader but I was like "NO!" All my brothers have gone through it... But I'm not a leader. I'm a follower and I'm proud of it! I hate taking charge of situations... Makes my life harder and just puts stress on me. I'm not good at handling stress and I have the temper of a bull. I'm definitely not suited to be a leader of a bunch of kids....

So they chose Roy.... I wonder if that's how you spell his name. He's a year younger than me but since he was chosen I bet everyone agreed! the thing is.... I'm not the only 16 year old in my neighbourhood you know! There are like 2 other people the same age as me, but apparently they aren't that qualified for the job (they're idiots). I agree though... They aren't they best candidates... ^^''

They asked me to attend a practice today though... ^^ At least they're being friendly... Or is it because they need me? Lol... And I saw Daryl shirtless today.... O_O Kinda taken back by the image... It's not that he doesn't look good... He looked.... Waaa~~ He became a man~ kekeke~

This is just another thing I wanna add to my wish list... I want an iPod!!! God! Get me an iPod! A black/white/red one!

Wish List

2008-10-26T01:36:00.000-07:00

I saw this cute little thing in a shop in Mid Valley... I really wanted it but I thought better of it. Why should I waste my money on a teddy bear. I regret it now of course... >_<
This is from one of my fave shops.... I forgot the name but the shop has wonderful styles that I like.... :D Yes, these are guys clothes but my mum and dad agree that they look nice.... I'm buying them next time! <3

I like guys clothes.... Their styles are simple and uncomplicated and comfortable... ^^

Pic of the Day

2008-10-25T10:10:00.000-07:00

PIC OF THE DAY

Career Talk

2008-10-25T09:43:00.000-07:00

We had a Career Talk last Friday, which was organised by the Interact Club or rather the Rotary Club of Sandakan. It was supposed to be a talk for the Form 5 and Form 4 which were going to be leaving school soon. But we had Form 3 attending. There were 4 schools participating in this activity... I think I mentioned it before... Whatever, I'll just mention them again.

They were Sung Siew, St. Michael, St. Mary's Boys and St. Cecilia Convent. The talk itself was interesting, but because the screen was so tiny, the people in the back (including me) couldn't even make out the writing. I was squinting and I couldn't see... Though, I am wearing glasses so that must be one reason. [Note to self: Get eyes checked].

We also had foreigners come to our school to give talks. There were 5 but only 4 gave talks to us. They were from Denmark, 2 women and 2 (incredibly handsome) men. Keke~ Obviously the girls were all ogling at the men (cause they were super hot). I find it interesting at how fast convent school girls swarm at every guy that comes within 5 feet of them. 3 feet and you'd probably be seeing them getting seisures. Fortunately, I am not one of those girls. Honestly, the experience was nice and they were hot, but I was more interested in Denmark.

From what I heard, Denmark is a place with a lot of free stuff provided by the government, cold winters (below 0) and high taxes. The free stuff must be balanced by the taxes I guess... But the Danish (is that right?) government handles any education fees that you have... So that means free education and huge benefits. I quote "As long as we have education..."

My mouth literally dropped open at the statement. I mean, that's a cool thing! Imagine if Malaysia had those type of policies! Everyone would be educated and people who couldn't afford education could easily send their kids to school! I don't want to think about the negative side of it, I'm quite happy with the image in my head. All fluffy and nice...

They left soon after their talk. They took many pictures with everyone but frankly I wasn't interested. These few days, I haven't been interested in many things... My brain literally shut itself down after exams... We haven't finished our syllabuses either... But that's another subject... The main point is, they were taking pictures with everyone but I don't know whether I regret not taking pictures or not... Lol...

Whatever....

Time to turn my brain off...

2008-10-21T23:17:00.000-07:00

It's been a stressful 2 weeks but finally my exams are over and it's safe to turn my brain off... No more thinking, memorising and calculating for another 2 months... ^^ Isn't life wonderful?

There's gonna be a career talk this Friday at our school and other schools are going to be attending too... St. Mary's boys school, Sung Siew and St. Michael.... Our school is going to be hosting it so we're all going to be running around this Friday.... It's in the afternoon, so none of us can go home and change. Were going to be in the hot hall, sweating and stinking up the place with BO.

I'm in charge of the PA system, I wonder who decided that because I have no experience handling the PA system... Of course, it's better than becoming the welcoming committee... I don't think I can wear a smile on my face for the required amount of time...

Honestly, I forgot all about this career talk until today... O_O Heck, I don't even know who is going to be giving the talk! All I know is Michelle (is that how you spell it?) is going to be there... I don't even know if the other Rotarians are going to go or not...

Hm.... Leaving that... I think I failed my Chemistry.... Add Maths is a must fail.. I couldn't answer most of the questions and just left them blank, including little smiley faces and words like 'Sorry, teacher.... I failed again' on the test paper... Wendy says that I got a 32... Wahaahahaha~ 8 more marks and I pass but still, I have no idea whether my mum is gonna be pissed or not. XD

Chemistry was a b*tch. I was bullcrapping the whole paper I think... I wouldn't be surprised if I got the same marks for Chemistry... Bet my mum wouldn't be happy about that... But what's done is done and the exams are now over... Whatever marks I get I can worry about later, right now I just need to turn my brain off and let it rest for a few weeks... XD

Can't wait till holidays!

Happy Birthday to ME!

2008-10-16T18:59:00.000-07:00

Wahahaha~ It's ma B'day today!!! ^^ Of course, there's no cause for celebration... -.- I have tests today... And it was Chemistry... I'm taking some time off studying to wish myself a happy birthday even if I think I failed my Chemistry paper 2... ^^''

Oh well, even if I failed that one I still have paper 1 and paper 3 to go... Hope I do better on those papers~ XD

Anyway... I haven't been posting a lot because I've been busy with other things and studying takes up most of my holidays, along with long hours spent drooling in front of the telly... XD

But, once my exams are over, I'm going to switch my brain off and just go online everyday... Btw, my exams end next Wednesday so I can't wait~ ^^

Wee~~~

Frustrated

2008-10-01T07:10:00.000-07:00

Just when I thought my day was going to turn out great it sours like fish left out overnight to rot. It started out just like any other day, only better? I guess that you can say that... It lasted from morning till evening.

Woke up without incident, went for a drive around Labuan, looking at the beaches and places and crap and even went to the local mall to buy some stuff... I got a new bottle...

Same brand as my other bottle... Love it.

“So what?” is one of my fave quotes and things to say.

Then as I said, everything turned sour.

It was time for dinner, I smelt ayam kicap from the room upstairs so I was like “Whee! Food!”

To my dismay of course, it wasn’t the food that I was hoping for... It was the smell of the pork dish that we had last night (which I really hated, full of fats and chewy and tough as hell). I ate the damn pork dish the night before and was determined not to eat it again. Apart from the leftover meal, my ‘mum’ had cooked prawns (boiled, I HATE THAT) and cabbages (which I HATE MORE).

I looked around the table and found that there was absolutely nothing for me to eat! WTF LA! I’m hungry! I KNOW my mum helped out in the kitchen, I KNOW she cooked, I KNOW she knows I hate to eat cabbages and can’t eat boiled prawns!

I felt like crying then and there...

All I ate was a boiled egg which was served with the pork. How sad is that?
She’s my mum, she should know that I need to eat something else. I bet she thought that I would eat the pork, but she couldn’t have expected me to eat ONLY that?! And even if she didn’t cook, she could’ve said something!!!! She’s my mum for goodness sake!

I ate my boiled egg and rice, drank my water and headed upstairs.... And while I was sitting there finishing my water my dad leans over and asks me, as if it’s the most NORMAL thing to do.

“Are you done?”

I looked at him and wanted to scream. “YES, I”M DONE! I HAVE NOTHING TO EAT! OF COURSE I’M DONE YOU BASTARD! WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT ME TO EAT?! AIR?!”

I so mad and betrayed...

So I just mumbled. “Ya, there’s nothing else to eat...”

Then as if I couldn’t hear them from the kitchen, he says in Kadazan to my mum. “What is wrong with your daughter?”

WTF!!!!

Stupid, inconsiderate, selfish, fools!

The worst part is, they gave me like a LOT of rice! What the f*** do you want me to eat it with?! You want me to pour my water all over the rice coz I’m sure it’ll taste good!

A**holes...

FOOD is an IMPORTANT matter to me! Even if I’m not hungry and there’s no food that I can eat I get really upset... I don’t know why, I just do. Everyone knows I’m picky and I mean everyone... I make it a point to say that I am picky and mention things I can’t and won’t eat before anyone offers me anything.

And my MUM, who has looked after me since birth just left me there to starve!

They even have the nerve to offer me bread and snacks as a substitute for dinner!

IDIOTS!

Merdeka Day Post Mortem

2008-09-20T09:24:00.000-07:00

PIC OF THE DAY

Mr. Fung dressed as a British person for national day.. Adorable. The moustache is fake btw...

Lol

Merdeka Day Celebration

2008-09-18T22:35:00.000-07:00

PIC OF THE DAY

Kat being silly during tuition

*****

I've been gone for a pretty long time for a host of reasons. Busy with school work and tests to prepare for, lazy, no Internet connection, writer's block etc.

But now I'm back, accompanied by a whole new list of things to complain about. Haha~ It seems to me that complaining is the only thing I do when I'm writing....

This post won't be any different. As the title says, Merdeka Day Celebration, I'm going to complain about that...

Firstly, why on Earth are they celebrating Merdeka Day (tomorrow;20 September 2008) when Merdeka was like a really long time ago, like 31st August 2008!!!! It's stupid and inconvenient.... I mean, I understand the government trying to put some patriotism into the students but what respectable teenager would want to go back to school on a SATURDAY just to waste their time standing in a hot hall, singing patriotic songs about our country when they could be sitting at home watching TV?!!! Or hanging out with friends in Mile 4?

I'm not going tomorrow... Despite being a prefect, I'm rebelling... The teachers said that it is going to be a very historic day because a representative of the Prime Minister. I emphasize the word representative. HELLO!?!!! It's not the bloody Prime Minister people!? It's just one of his mindless zombies doing the dirty work that he himself wouldn't prefer to do. That's the truth... He's too busy ruining our politics to visit a little convent school in a little town.

Heck, I think I would do the same if I were in his shoes...

We did the backdrop for the celebration tomorrow... In my opinion, even if I did help do it, it's ridiculous.... ^^'' It's the teachers fault for choosing loony people to do the backdrop for such an auspicious occasion. Our class is full of lunatics, especially the front row (which includes me). Were the ones that keep the class alive and twitching.

Exams are in 3 weeks and I'm still not preparing.... Haha~

Funfair & Yu Yuan Night

2008-08-30T22:14:00.000-07:00

On Friday, I went to Yu Yuan Night with Bernice and her sis, Celine.... It was like a concert. The performances were good especially one of the skits they did. It was really funny. I'm not in the mood to go into details so just take my word that it was awesome. The other performances were just so and so... I didn't like the singing. And one of the skits was so emo it scared me. Literally, the whole hall was silent during the performance. It was horribly emo. The last dance performance was awesome though. Not really mouth opening but very good.

After that, I went to the funfair. FINALLY! Bern and I were really excited! Tagada was there!!! Wee~~ But the fair was empty and boring. If it wasn't for Tagada, I don't think anyone would go. Air Force 1 is out of the picture. Apparently someone died on it when the swinging part came loose. I don't know wether its true but since its not set up I guess it is... The best thing about Tagada now is that there is a guy that dances in the middle of the thing! He's sooooo cool! Ok,so he dances sembarangan but still, he even does jumps!!! I took a video from the outside of the ride but the next time I go, I wanna record from the inside~ Muahahahaha~

There's a rumor that Air Force 1 is going to be set up soon. But I don't know how reliable the source is so... I'm keeping my fingers crossed! ^^

Holidays are almost over~

2008-08-22T06:00:00.000-07:00

T_T This Sunday is the last day of holidays... Why on Earth does it have to end so quick? I want it to be longer... I don't mind sitting on the couch day in and day out, staring at the TV like a mindless zombie. All that while watching reruns of the Olympic events that I've missed.

The funfair is open... Finally.... I really want to go... Too bad that they don't have Air Force 1 anymore...They still have Tagada though~^^ I hope that I can go and hang with my friends!! Hehee.... *dreams of Tagada*

Piccies of KL

2008-08-20T01:45:00.001-07:00

It all begins here... These are some of the stuff that we brought... I, honestly packed as if I was moving into a new house... ^^''

This is me, happy and exited as can be.

Nyahahahaa~ This was on the plane. I didn't off my hp but I did change it to flight mode. Something that I learnt from Sherrina.

One of my fave pics from the plane. There are many more, including a take off video that I shot but I'm too lazy to post those so I have to make due with this... :P

The lobby of The Boulevard. Nothing short of breath taking? I guess... I really like it that's all...

The bed in my room~ I haven't taken any pics of my bed, but I will soon...

These are a few shots of the Voodolls(?) that I saw in one of the cool shops in Mid Valley. I took this in a shop called 'Room(s)'. It was awesome and really cool.. I didn't even know it existed!

This is the BIGGEST PostPet Keychain that I have ever seen! I want it! Too bad its pink... :/

One of the many giant sets in Mid Valley the day I arrived. The next day, they were gone and were replaced by facial merchandise..... There are other pictures. They were HUGE!

I'll post other piccies and some experiences later... When my back isn't aching.. XD

Coffee Bean

2008-08-20T01:20:00.000-07:00

Coffee Bean, my Saviour!

As stated, I am in Coffee Bean at the moment, writing this post. Currently, drinking a pure chocolate non-coffee ice blend, sitting alone in a corner like some lost wanderer in an old fantasy story.

I am in KL right now. Yes, it's been a long time since I last updated. Initially, the hotel we were staying in, The Boulevard Hotel, is supposed to have Wi-Fi. But, not known by my father, we had to pay for the damn connection! So, I had to refrain myself for a couple of days from blogging. Until today, I couldn't take it any longer and I just had to go somewhere with free wifi!!!

And so, my journey takes me here. To Coffee Bean. My Saviour.

***

We left for KL on the morning of the 17th of August at 9.00 am we went into the departure hall... I had to make a U-turn back to my house because I left my damned handphone... How dumb of me... -slaps own head-

The journey from Sandakan to KL was along and arduous one. We took an AirAsia flight, which meant free seating. And of all places, I was seated in front of a stupid kid who wouldn't let me get a wink of sleep cause he kept on kicking my seat. I swear I glared at him and he finally stopped for the remainder of the flight.

The Boulevard is awesome and chic. I love decor and the feel the rooms give you when you first enter them. The rooms may be a little small than I am used to, but I still like it. The room only had a queen/king(?) sized bed for my parents so they had to get another bed in just to accommodate me. I'm sleeping next to the window.

We then went for a walk in Mid Valley. Boulevard is connected to Mid Valley so we just had to make a couple of turns before we found ourselves in the shopping mall. My fave mall by the way. I took a lot of piccies but I'll get to posting that later...

Had fun walking on my own. At least now I am finally old enough to do so. ^^ Heehee~ I didn't enjoy my second day though. We went to Bukit Bintang and it was raining. Damned KL weather. I got wet and that virtually ruined the whole day for me. And once something ruins my day, I ruin everyone else'sday. Stupid rain.

Bought lotsa stuff... And that's all I can say.

Pic of the Day

2008-08-16T00:58:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow~

2008-08-16T00:54:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow, I will be leaving for KL!!!! Weee~~~~

Shopping paradise~

I hope to find millions of postpets there~

OMG~ I haven't packed!

WOOTNESS!!!

2008-08-14T22:27:00.000-07:00

ITS HOLIDAY!!!!

Puppies Incoming! (II)

2008-08-14T21:55:00.001-07:00

Woot! Once again, Abi's puppies!!!! *claps*

I was supposed to upload these with the other batch of pics but I forgot... Even us teens are getting senile...

Above, is the puppy we call 'Kurap'. We call her that because her tail is bald as it has a skin disease.... It's getting better now tho~
From left to right, Blackie (the only one with a nice tail), Negro and Buta... I think...

This is Buta.~ (above)

This is my fave pic! They're all asleep and arranged!! Wahahahaha~

This is Blackie and Besar... Asleep before I woke Blackie...:P Oops~

Hehee~ This is the full shot of the pic above!

This is Kurap again~

Random pictures

2008-08-14T02:21:00.001-07:00

Hmmm... Since I am bored at the moment, I wanna post some random pictures that I have taken and am particularly proud of~ Enjoy! XD This was supposed to be a picture of an orchid in my backyard, instead it became like this and I converted it into a painting with my phone.
Before going to bed, I took this... This pic was also converted to paint style.

In the backyard. Converted.

This was supposed to be a pic of the yellow flower on the right, but it turned out this way, but I'm happy all the same~^^

**All pics were taken using a Sony Ericsson W910i phone~

Wootness!! (III)

2008-08-14T02:11:00.001-07:00

Wootness!!! 1 more day till holidays!!!!! Muahahahhahahhahhahaa~

Puppies Incoming!

2008-08-13T06:40:00.000-07:00

As the title says, 'Puppies Incoming!' Muahahahhahaa~~~ Our dog, Abi (bottom) just gave birth a little while ago, actually about a couple of months ago, to 5 little pups!!! 3 white and 2 black. Unfortunately, we are not able to keep them so we're going to give them away soon... Don't know when though, but I hope that it's not soon! ~^^~ The pic (above) is Abi and her puppies, the 3 white ones are the only pups you can see at the moment, but the other 2 were on the other side~
This is 'Besar'. We call her that because she's the biggest of the lot and also the most mischievous.

This is 'Negro'. Haha~ Her hair is curly so we call her that~ She's the most laid back and is the 2nd biggest~^^

This is Besar again~

This is Besar (bottom left) and Negro.

They seem to be the only one willing to sit still for pictures~

This is Negro and Buta(right). Buta, as his name suggests, is blind in one eye... Some kind of infection has taken his eye... T_T

That's all the pics I have at this moment of the puppies. I will upload more once the other 2 decide to keep still and produce non-blurry, alien-like pics....^^

Wootness! (II)

2008-08-12T22:09:00.000-07:00

Wootness!!

2 more days till holidays start!!!

:drool:

Condolences

2008-08-12T05:46:00.000-07:00

This post might be up a little too late, but I would just like to wish condolences to my good friend, Bernice since she has just lost her beloved grandmother a few days ago. I couldn't find the words to say so I put off this post. It wasn't until I finished reading her post that I finally got an idea of what I wanted to say.

Though, I still don't think it's my place to say anything. So, I will just say this~

I'm sure that wherever your apo is in heaven now, I'm sure that she is looking down on you and smiling proudly as her little grand daughter has finally turned into a grown woman. Plus, now she gets to see you whenever she wants! She doesn't have to wait for you to visit her anymore... So, I'm sure she's happy~

Wootness!!

2008-08-11T22:01:00.000-07:00

Wootness!!! 3 more days to go till the holidays!!

Thoughts

2008-08-09T18:46:00.001-07:00

We as students are expected to be well mannered, polite, punctual and all that nice crap that our teachers are always telling us. But what about the teachers? Don't they need to be well mannered? Polite? Punctual? Don't these rules apply to them as well? As educators of the next generation, don't they have to set the bar for us and be good examples for the leaders of tomorrow?

They tell you that you have to greet any teachers that you meet and yet they do not return the greeting. I never knew that grunting was a greeting as well. They tell you that you have to be on time to school and yet they come into class about half an hour late. Does that qualify as punctual. They tell you that you have to be considerate of others and yet they expect you to be there to tend to their every needs when it suits them. We have stuff we need to do too! They expect you to finish all your assignments and projects saying that it's your responsibility, and yet they never finish marking the books you handed in 3 months ago!

How do you expect students to respect you when you don't even set a good example for us to follow?

Recent studies have shown that students, the teens, are looking for someone that they can look up to. A confidant in which they can put their trust into. If they can't find a role model in their home, they look to their teachers. But what if they can't find it in their teachers either.

I didn't have to look far for a role model. My family is full of great role models. I look up to my brothers and parents, feeding on their stories and experiences. I learn from them, as I would like to learn from my teachers. Though, all I've learned is that life is hard and that people like them don't make it any easier for the rest of us.

Maybe I should thank them?

I've learned to deal with all their idiocy. Their quirks. Their bad habits. They've made me somewhat patient.

At least now I'm better at ignoring idiots.

On the OLYMPICS!

2008-08-09T06:28:00.000-07:00

The Olympics were supposed to be the most anticipated event of the year. And it is, I think everyone I knew were watching the opening ceremony last night. I have to admit, the Chinese had it! It was spectacular and I am impressed by the way they were able to co-operate and work together to make the whole thing a success. They reminded me of an army of fire ants marching off into the forest to scavenge. It was awesome! Though, for some reason or another, I started to fall asleep right in the middle of the performances.

Since I was still having tests at the time, I put it down to pure fatigue from thinking and processing the whole day. Then again, it could have been because some of the performances were boring? Hm.... That's a possibility, but judging by how my whole class was mumbling about the awesome performance the Chinese put on last night, I think it's because of fatigue.

Anyway, before I continue rambling any longer, I would just like to wish all the hopeful athletes in China right now the best of luck! Don't break a leg, you might be needing it!

Finally!

2008-08-08T21:53:00.000-07:00

Finally!
It's the end of gempur! I've been anticipating the moment the bell rings and the day is over! XD Haha...... I have been studying like mad for this test, but it looks like I will fail anyway... Stupid Add Maths... Also, Chemistry was hard.... :/

Though not as hard as Add Maths... I skipped so many questions and screwed so many that when I was done I knew that I would fail. It was the most horrible feeling to have when you finish a test. The inevitable is coming and there is nothing you can do about it... I think our whole class would be hearing from the teacher how dumb we are next week. Yes, that's right.... There are many others in our class unable to cope with the huge mind numbing formulas and reasoning's of add maths... It lightens the pain a bit, knowing that you're fellow classmates are also suffering as you are... Haha~

It is fact that add maths is hard, and it's also a fact that I hate everything to do with maths... Maths and I are like oil and water and I'm the water, always stuck underneath the slick layer of oil that's slowly suffocating me. If I had a choice, I would definitely drop the subject and pay attention to the other science subjects. But the truth of the matter is that I have no choice. This murderous subject is compulsory for all science stream students... Frik you ADD MATHS!!!

Though, the upside is still the fact that now I have loads of free time to spend on the computer. Writing mindless ramblings to my hearts content. Next week, on Saturday, is the start of school holiday! Muahahaahaha!!! Even more free time to ramble!

Worries

2008-08-02T23:28:00.000-07:00

ISH...

I'm feeling really crappy these last few days... It's so stressful being a student.... And the teachers aren't making it any easier either... Well, it's not like I'm expecting that things are going to become simpler as I age, it's just going to get harder and harder. Frik la~

Also, to add to my worries, I'm going to have Gempur next week. Damn tests... The worst thing is, when I'm supposed to be studying, I'm here, online... Writing a blog entry. How dumb am I?

I haven't even studied enough yet... I'm tired of studying... I just wanna lie down in bed and enjoy my books, which I never seem to be able to finish by the way. It's hard to be a teenager and balance your life and school. You can't have both, you have to chose either one. Well, in my case at least. I can't pay attention to both, it's too stressful...

Well I'd better go and study my ass off... Stupid Bio so many chapters... Stupid Add Maths... SO hard...

^^ News~~~

2008-07-24T23:59:00.000-07:00

Hmm.... It's been a while, and a lot has happened in the past week... Of course, there are some good news and bad news... Not much good news though I'm afraid... :(

BAD NEWS

I'm gonna be having Gempur in like less than 2 weeks? I'm not even sure when it is... I it's gonna be on the 6th of August... Crap....
Bible Knowledge is one of the subjects
Add Maths might be from chapter 1-8?
Biology might be from 2-6?

GOOD NEWS

The international exchange program is confirmed and going to be in USA, India and Japan. I'm definitely going to Japan, though I think I have a 32% chance of actually being able to go... :/
I passed my add maths test... Just luck...

wow... only two good news... How damn sad is that? -.-

More updates soon~^^

Happy Birthday

2008-07-17T02:15:00.000-07:00

THE LITTLE THINGS THAT HAPPEN

The Little Things That Happen
Are tucked into your mind,
And come again to greet you
(Or most of them you'll find).

Through many little doorways,
Of which you keep the keys,
They crowd into your thinking-
We call them Memories.

But some of them are rovers
And wander off and get
So lost, the keys get rusty
And that means- you forget.

But some stay ever near you;
You'll find they never rove-
The keys are always shining-
Those are the things you love.

-Marjorie Wilson

Today is a special day, not for me of course, but for me great and close friend, Bernice. ^_^ CONGRATULATIONS on turning 17! We've been through thick and thin,we've been friends since we were mere toddlers and yet all these years we have managed to stay close friends! Frankly, I'm proud of that accomplishment. :P

And through all these years we've created nothing but memories, memories that will never stray but will always stay imprinted in our minds and will be the chain that binds us together. Haha~ SO mushy. But it's true. Once you finish Form 5 you will go one way, pursuing your dreams and when I leave, I will go the other way to follow mine. But no matter how far our dreams drive us apart, the friendship and our memories will always be there. ^^

Now, before I become even mushier and cry, I would just like to say, have a very happy birthday and may all you're wildest wishes come true!

Your friend,
Chibeh

Schedule

2008-07-11T19:25:00.000-07:00

We just got our new schedule last Friday. It was horrible! I swear that the teachers are trying to torture us to death.

What bothers me is Friday on our new schedule... And Thursday. God, this is so unfair.... Our school is going to start block teaching next week. Which means that we have one less subject a day than before... I can live with Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday but Thursday and Friday is like a marathon around the world! I've never seen a worse schedule in my life! Thursday, I thought that we were going to have 4 subjects only, one less than before! But instead we have one more than before. We even have to take CIVIC after school!

I honestly don't get why the government wants us to take Civic when its actually quite identical to Moral Studies?!!! Are they just trying to give us teens a hard time? Its ridiculous... Absolutely ridiculous... Plus I have tuition to attend after school.... They don't expect me to rush back home do they?!!! STUDENTS HAVE LIVES TOO!!!!

If only we're allowed to go on strike... Too bad our school rules & regulations say that anyone who does go on strike will be suspended until further notice... I still remember that... I looked it up because I really hated me school before... And now.... I hate it even more...

We're the only ones that have so many subjects.... It's stupid... And EST.... I want to drop it. I am honestly not interested.... The teacher doesn't catch my attention and the classes are like English classes... I don't NEED English classes!

On Friday, we have Physics, Biology, Malay and Chemistry in one whole day... Then after school, we have EST! GRR.... We have all 4 science subjects in a damn day! Are they trying to short circuit our brains?

I'm really pissed with my school now...

Weird BBQ

2008-07-05T17:31:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I was in church last night and I saw kakak Edna, I really like her so I said 'Hi' to her after church... She asked me how I was doing, the whole like. Then, near our cars she invites me to her place for a BBQ. Apparently, his little bro, Sam,was supposed to call me but he didn't. He was supposed to invite Bernice too. I arrived there after going to Giant, the most ridiculous supermarket by the way, and found that the Youth choir were there... I was like 'OMG WTF!!!!!'

I was so surprised I think I lost my voice, because when people said 'Hi!' I just smiled back. The BBQ was great, kakak Cynthia (I have no idea whether that's right) was funny and kakak Edna was cool as always. In the end, Sam and I hung out in the living room watching 'House'. He became very philosophical and very weird. He started giving me advice and making me feel weird. He was trying really hard to speak English though..^^'' I was trying hard not to laugh...

Hmmm.. Out of all the youth... Only Guni and Boy were nice to me. The rest kinda ignored me. Like I mind, I think they're all dumb anyway...

So NOISY!

2008-07-02T05:55:00.001-07:00

After sitting down in my room today, with the fan turned off, I just sat in silence listening to the sounds around me. I never really stopped to appreciate the silence and peace that static musty air gives you. I live in a world full of noise and so do you, but usually, like anyone else who has a life, we ignore the sounds around us. The honks, bonks, crash, bangs, bumps and clangs of life.

I felt peaceful lying down on my bed looking at the ceiling. It was so quiet, I swear that I could hear the air moving in and out of my ears. I was also quite surprised at how tolerant I was, how tolerant everyone was with all the noise. In school, I am bombarded with hundreds of sounds. Teens gossiping, teachers scolding, construction, traffic on the road, screams, laughs, giggles, scraping and all the like. At home, I have an array of sounds coming from all the animals. I have a cat, 3 dogs including 5 whining puppies and a noisy scraping hamster. Not forgetting the TV and all that music blasting from my headphones into my ears too! It's like sound pollution heaven, and that's only in Sandakan! I wonder how bad the pollution would be in New York... That, definitely could cause hearing damage.

Heck, with all this noise, I wouldn't be surprised that when I'm old and probably crippled, I'd be at least half deaf. Or worse case scenario I'd be legally deaf by 50.

Anyhow, from now on I would definitely look after my ears. Without them, I might not be able to appreciate the beauty of music, which has become one of my obsessions. And as a teen, that would be like giving an innocent a life sentence. So, I'll lower the TVs volume, less head phone time and if possible bring ear plugs to school.

New Year's Resolution

2008-07-01T01:26:00.000-07:00

Some people decide on their New Years resolutions, days before the actual event. Haha... Not me... I've decided a full 6 months after the 1st of January. Quite late actually.

Honestly, I've never bothered with resolutions... I mean, why bother writing down a list of things you want to do or want to be in the coming year when you're just going to misplace the paper somewhere?! All you're succeeding in is incresing the amount of trees being cut down just do write your dumb resolution. Ok, ok so some people might take this New Years resolution thing seriously. But how many?

How many actually take the time to sit down and read what they had written and actually take the necessary steps to achieve them? I'm not one of them that's for sure... Before at least.

Something came about that made me want to change my ways. Change my perspective and try to restrict my horizon rather than broaden it. Cause I've learnt that my brain works in peculiar ways. If I know too much, my brain automatically turns off and I just focus on the weaknesses of anyone else who's IQs aren't up to par. Bad habit right? It's this bad habit that brought on my unavoidable downfall. That and the fact that I have the will power of an Amoeba.

Our school had just handed out our first semester report cards, I don't know how many weeks ago. Riding in the car with my mum knowing that I have failed the exams was really awkward. Honestly, and I'm not trying to brag or anything, I've never failed an examination before.... Ever.... In my entire life. Well, at least during my high school years anyway. I've failed tests before,mostly Add Maths the Devils subject. Additional Mathematics is the root of this problem, but I've never faced a problem to this extent... I only got 33% for the subject. How sad is that?

I entered the classroom with my mum, we waited for our turn. I actually, already knew my class ranking. I got number 12... A whole new low for me. I've never been in the top 20 spot before... During my time in high school, I have never gotten this low in the rankings. I've always been top 10 but I guess now, I can't even say that. Needless to say, my mum wasn't at all happy with me. I wasn't happy with myself either.

As we left the school grounds and made our way across the overhead bridge, a heavy feeling started to form inside of me. It felt like my heart was being squeezed painfully. I realised that it was the desire to do better. To not fail again.

I went into the car, the feeling in my chest not leaving, like a parasite eating away at me from the inside out. I decided then and there to try better in the second semester and at least get top 10 even if I can't pass my Add Maths.

Not to brag or anything, but I have been making some progress in areas concerning homework and attention span during classes. I've made an effort to prepare for tests, finish homework and not fall asleep during class, which is still posing as a problem for me. No matter how early I went to bed the night before.

Anyway, if I can keep this up then, I hope to see the fruits of my labour this coming year end...~

Wish me luck!

Who left the tables out?!

2008-06-30T01:57:00.000-07:00

It's Monday. The very first day of the week. I get to school early in the morning to find some of the tables arranged together with some chairs outside my class. So in my mind I'm going, "What the heck?" I enter the classroom to find that the early birds have already claimed some of the chairs and tables that were left in the class as their own. Making the classroom look quite bare in places where there were no tables.

After arranging my row of tables I went about my business as usual, its like only 6.00 am. School doesn't start till 6.45 am. Yes, we do get up ridiculously early just to go to school. In my opinion, I think it's inhumane, the students living in Sabah have to wake up earlier to leave for school... Anyway, slowly the class starts to fill up with noisy students. Each having their own personal voice decibel. Pretty soon, I wasn't able to hear myself think. As was the tradition of our class.

Then, the bell rang, signifying the start of the school day and also the start of our Monday morning assembly. Which all the students, including me despite being a prefect, were dreading. I swear they were all walking abnormally slow when the time came to enter the hall. You should see them during recess, they run like its the end of the world.

End of assembly, and everyone reluctantly go back to their classes. I enter my class and see the tables still outside. Nobody had bothered to even help with lifting the tables despite the giant gaps in the middle of the classroom. Of course, I was one of them. Not proud of it by the way, but I have now realised that my class is full of self centered, hypocritical people who don't help without being asked. Once I realised this, I immediately went outside and began hauling the tables inside while shaking my head.

Out of the 45 people in my class, not one had stood up to help carry the tables. Instead, all of them refused to even take notice and just went about their noisy business.

I have no idea where this type of attitude came from. All I know is that I'm really surprised at the students of 4A.

Mottainai!

2008-06-24T06:21:00.000-07:00

This is a phrase that is apparently common around the world, according to a friend of mine. It is a Japanese word that means regretting wasting. At least that is how I interpret it... It has another meaning though.
So, when I told him that I had no idea what on Earth it meant, he sent me a link and I learned a lot.
Since I am interested in Japanese, I try to learn as many words as I can. Now this word, is one of those words you can't stop using. Well, for me that is... ^^
Anyway, thanks Yuma for sharing this with me!

Homework blues

2008-06-23T01:19:00.001-07:00

Just as I had feared, the grass is NOT greener on the other side. In fact, there is no other side. Or so it seems.

Since I have just gotten back from the state level debates competition, reality struck me that I have just missed a whole week of school! I am already behind in my studies because of drama and now I'm more behind than ever. In fact, if there was another word worse than behind I would be that word.

Also, I have just seen the mountain of homework that was waiting for me. I swear my arm is going to ache for a week. But I guess I'm not really one to complain, there are others in my class that have it worse than I do...

God, I hate school.

Shy or just selfish?

2008-06-22T06:42:00.001-07:00

I don't have a best friend. I find it unfair for anyone else who is 'just' my friend so I don't choose.

That is what I tell people... But the fact is...

I have very close friend.... I've been with her through thick and thin, shared my deepest and inner most secrets with her and have even let her stay in my house.It's so easy to talk to her, and I tell her just about everything! If that isn't a best friend, I don't know what is...

The thing is, I don't embrace this fact. I actually deny it. Even if she does say that I am her best friend, and as much as I want to tell her the same thing, I can't. Am I selfish? Or just shy to admit my feelings after denying it for so long?

I plan to tell her someday... But I don't know when... She deserves to know that I do appreciate her and love her for the good friend that she is. Deserves to know that I too think of her as a best friend...

I just realised this today and I can't get it off my mind. I feel so dumb not having noticed this earlier...

Rivals or Friends?

2008-06-20T08:42:00.001-07:00

I recently arrived back from Kota Belud yesterday. I was there along with 5 other students and a teacher for the State level English Style Parliamentary Debates 2008. We managed to place 3rd out of the 6 schools that participated. I'm happy and completely satisfied with our achievement. We went against last years National champs from Kota Kinabalu. Honestly, I thought that they were going to be really stuck up and mean. Just like a school where I'm from. The students think that they are above everyone, I'm guessing that this mindset is the cause of their early downfall when they met our school during the preliminary rounds. Muahahaha!
Anyway... The KK people were really friendly. After they mercilessly slaughtered us during the semi-finals we actually got together and made friends! And to think, before this we were really scared of them. We were literally petrified actually! Haha!
Guess it really goes to show that you can't judge a book by its cover!

Be Stress Free

2008-06-20T07:40:00.000-07:00

Honestly, I don't understand why teens are so stressed nowadays. In the past it seems that teens were the most laid back people in the community. They might not be as innocent as children or as wise as the adults, but they're growing and learning.

I know that one's intelligence quotient is very important, especially in the world today where you need certain qualifications to get a high paying job and everything. But the process to achieve this intelligence is a hard fought one full of twists and turns. I, in particular, am having a really hard time staying with my schools curriculum. It's not that I don't want to study. As a matter of fact, I'm hungry for information. I'm also not saying that the schools nowadays aren't giving and supplying the information that I want and crave. It's all there. There's just something wrong with how it is all presented to the students.

What I mean is, we have the information, but no way to express it to the students. I'm talking about the teachers. It's very hard to find good, motivating, uplifting teachers these days. In fact, I've never met a teacher that has ever inspired me to finish my homework on time. The methods of teaching used in my classes are very boring and extremely dull. All they do is just make me annoyed with the subject and just couldn't be bothered with it anymore. Some of the people, who might be reading this, especially teachers and parents, would say that this is the wrong attitude. Believe me, I've tried voicing my opinions out to my parents. They can sometimes understand and at other times they have no idea.

Parents and educators of today might say that the education system today is very lenient compared to the strictness of the schools a long time ago. You can actually say that were lucky as teens now. I think its great that some parts of the world have abolished corporal punishment, but in Malaysia, this type of punishment is far from being abolished. In Malaysia, only the boys can receive CP while girls aren't allowed to be hit. Personally, I don't find this fair. Even if you are a girl or a boy, you should not be hit. Even if this is to instill good behavior and deter bad ones, what is most important is the foundation that these children receive. Since everything starts from home, parents play a bigger role in ensuring that a child can tell right from wrong and is able to make the right decisions based on this foundation.

I seem to have strayed from my topic. O_O

I'm unhappy with how the guidelines of education in Malaysia. According to my dad, it is compulsory for children to attend school. WE Malaysians aren't allowed to be home schooled. I want to be home schooled. I want to learn at my own space,without the stressful factors of school getting in my way. I, personally am having a hard time keeping up. Since the schools only have less than a year to finish their wide syllabus, the teachers often end up speeding through the whole thing without regard to whether the students understand them or not. After all, they're still getting paid no matter what grades their students get in class. Be it an A or an E.

This often results in the students taking tuition. Without tuition, I bet we would have a pandemic of idiots walking around our country. So, it's actually tuition building and sculpting the leaders of tomorrow. As hard as it is to swallow, it is FACT. I find that tuition is a form of home study. Since you either go to special centers or to a teachers house for tuition. This type of 'Home Study' is stress free and allows the teacher and student to bond. Some teachers are not able to open up to their students in school, but they turn into social extroverts once they're home and in their short pants and T-shirts rather than the batik, ties and heels they use to school everyday. Also, studies show that your mental state actually influences how well you are able to accept, process or retrieve information. So, compared to school where you are bombarded with countless assignments, loads of homework, possibilities of punishment and lots of other stressful factors, you could actually be learning more just by sitting at a dining table for two hours.

Also, tuition is a way to get extra money. But the effectiveness of the tuition session also still depends on what type of teacher is teaching. After all, what use use is tuition if you have an equally boring and useless teacher like in school?

I asked my dad if it was alright for me to stop school and be home schooled. Because about one quarter of the general information in my brain right now come from my parents. He said that it was possible, but it's just that the Malaysian government doesn't allow it.

^^ I'd probably be migrating out once I start working...