^^ News~~~

Hmm.... It's been a while, and a lot has happened in the past week... Of course, there are some good news and bad news... Not much good news though I'm afraid... :(

BAD NEWS

• I'm gonna be having Gempur in like less than 2 weeks? I'm not even sure when it is... I it's gonna be on the 6th of August... Crap....
• Bible Knowledge is one of the subjects
• Add Maths might be from chapter 1-8?
• Biology might be from 2-6?

GOOD NEWS

• The international exchange program is confirmed and going to be in USA, India and Japan. I'm definitely going to Japan, though I think I have a 32% chance of actually being able to go... :/
• I passed my add maths test... Just luck...

wow... only two good news... How damn sad is that? -.-

More updates soon~^^

Happy Birthday

THE LITTLE THINGS THAT HAPPEN

The Little Things That Happen
Are tucked into your mind,
And come again to greet you
(Or most of them you'll find).

Through many little doorways,
Of which you keep the keys,
They crowd into your thinking-
We call them Memories.

But some of them are rovers
And wander off and get
So lost, the keys get rusty
And that means- you forget.

But some stay ever near you;
You'll find they never rove-
The keys are always shining-
Those are the things you love.

-Marjorie Wilson


Today is a special day, not for me of course, but for me great and close friend, Bernice. ^_^ CONGRATULATIONS on turning 17! We've been through thick and thin,we've been friends since we were mere toddlers and yet all these years we have managed to stay close friends! Frankly, I'm proud of that accomplishment. :P

And through all these years we've created nothing but memories, memories that will never stray but will always stay imprinted in our minds and will be the chain that binds us together. Haha~ SO mushy. But it's true. Once you finish Form 5 you will go one way, pursuing your dreams and when I leave, I will go the other way to follow mine. But no matter how far our dreams drive us apart, the friendship and our memories will always be there. ^^

Now, before I become even mushier and cry, I would just like to say, have a very happy birthday and may all you're wildest wishes come true!

Your friend,
Chibeh

Schedule

We just got our new schedule last Friday. It was horrible! I swear that the teachers are trying to torture us to death.

What bothers me is Friday on our new schedule... And Thursday. God, this is so unfair.... Our school is going to start block teaching next week. Which means that we have one less subject a day than before... I can live with Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday but Thursday and Friday is like a marathon around the world! I've never seen a worse schedule in my life! Thursday, I thought that we were going to have 4 subjects only, one less than before! But instead we have one more than before. We even have to take CIVIC after school!

I honestly don't get why the government wants us to take Civic when its actually quite identical to Moral Studies?!!! Are they just trying to give us teens a hard time? Its ridiculous... Absolutely ridiculous... Plus I have tuition to attend after school.... They don't expect me to rush back home do they?!!! STUDENTS HAVE LIVES TOO!!!!

If only we're allowed to go on strike... Too bad our school rules & regulations say that anyone who does go on strike will be suspended until further notice... I still remember that... I looked it up because I really hated me school before... And now.... I hate it even more...

We're the only ones that have so many subjects.... It's stupid... And EST.... I want to drop it. I am honestly not interested.... The teacher doesn't catch my attention and the classes are like English classes... I don't NEED English classes!

On Friday, we have Physics, Biology, Malay and Chemistry in one whole day... Then after school, we have EST! GRR.... We have all 4 science subjects in a damn day! Are they trying to short circuit our brains?

I'm really pissed with my school now...

Weird BBQ

Ok, so I was in church last night and I saw kakak Edna, I really like her so I said 'Hi' to her after church... She asked me how I was doing, the whole like. Then, near our cars she invites me to her place for a BBQ. Apparently, his little bro, Sam,was supposed to call me but he didn't. He was supposed to invite Bernice too. I arrived there after going to Giant, the most ridiculous supermarket by the way, and found that the Youth choir were there... I was like 'OMG WTF!!!!!'

I was so surprised I think I lost my voice, because when people said 'Hi!' I just smiled back. The BBQ was great, kakak Cynthia (I have no idea whether that's right) was funny and kakak Edna was cool as always. In the end, Sam and I hung out in the living room watching 'House'. He became very philosophical and very weird. He started giving me advice and making me feel weird. He was trying really hard to speak English though..^^'' I was trying hard not to laugh...

Hmmm.. Out of all the youth... Only Guni and Boy were nice to me. The rest kinda ignored me. Like I mind, I think they're all dumb anyway...

So NOISY!

After sitting down in my room today, with the fan turned off, I just sat in silence listening to the sounds around me. I never really stopped to appreciate the silence and peace that static musty air gives you. I live in a world full of noise and so do you, but usually, like anyone else who has a life, we ignore the sounds around us. The honks, bonks, crash, bangs, bumps and clangs of life.

I felt peaceful lying down on my bed looking at the ceiling. It was so quiet, I swear that I could hear the air moving in and out of my ears. I was also quite surprised at how tolerant I was, how tolerant everyone was with all the noise. In school, I am bombarded with hundreds of sounds. Teens gossiping, teachers scolding, construction, traffic on the road, screams, laughs, giggles, scraping and all the like. At home, I have an array of sounds coming from all the animals. I have a cat, 3 dogs including 5 whining puppies and a noisy scraping hamster. Not forgetting the TV and all that music blasting from my headphones into my ears too! It's like sound pollution heaven, and that's only in Sandakan! I wonder how bad the pollution would be in New York... That, definitely could cause hearing damage.

Heck, with all this noise, I wouldn't be surprised that when I'm old and probably crippled, I'd be at least half deaf. Or worse case scenario I'd be legally deaf by 50.

Anyhow, from now on I would definitely look after my ears. Without them, I might not be able to appreciate the beauty of music, which has become one of my obsessions. And as a teen, that would be like giving an innocent a life sentence. So, I'll lower the TVs volume, less head phone time and if possible bring ear plugs to school.

New Year's Resolution

Some people decide on their New Years resolutions, days before the actual event. Haha... Not me... I've decided a full 6 months after the 1st of January. Quite late actually.

Honestly, I've never bothered with resolutions... I mean, why bother writing down a list of things you want to do or want to be in the coming year when you're just going to misplace the paper somewhere?! All you're succeeding in is incresing the amount of trees being cut down just do write your dumb resolution. Ok, ok so some people might take this New Years resolution thing seriously. But how many?

How many actually take the time to sit down and read what they had written and actually take the necessary steps to achieve them? I'm not one of them that's for sure... Before at least.

Something came about that made me want to change my ways. Change my perspective and try to restrict my horizon rather than broaden it. Cause I've learnt that my brain works in peculiar ways. If I know too much, my brain automatically turns off and I just focus on the weaknesses of anyone else who's IQs aren't up to par. Bad habit right? It's this bad habit that brought on my unavoidable downfall. That and the fact that I have the will power of an Amoeba.

Our school had just handed out our first semester report cards, I don't know how many weeks ago. Riding in the car with my mum knowing that I have failed the exams was really awkward. Honestly, and I'm not trying to brag or anything, I've never failed an examination before.... Ever.... In my entire life. Well, at least during my high school years anyway. I've failed tests before,mostly Add Maths the Devils subject. Additional Mathematics is the root of this problem, but I've never faced a problem to this extent... I only got 33% for the subject. How sad is that?

I entered the classroom with my mum, we waited for our turn. I actually, already knew my class ranking. I got number 12... A whole new low for me. I've never been in the top 20 spot before... During my time in high school, I have never gotten this low in the rankings. I've always been top 10 but I guess now, I can't even say that. Needless to say, my mum wasn't at all happy with me. I wasn't happy with myself either.

As we left the school grounds and made our way across the overhead bridge, a heavy feeling started to form inside of me. It felt like my heart was being squeezed painfully. I realised that it was the desire to do better. To not fail again.

I went into the car, the feeling in my chest not leaving, like a parasite eating away at me from the inside out. I decided then and there to try better in the second semester and at least get top 10 even if I can't pass my Add Maths.

Not to brag or anything, but I have been making some progress in areas concerning homework and attention span during classes. I've made an effort to prepare for tests, finish homework and not fall asleep during class, which is still posing as a problem for me. No matter how early I went to bed the night before.

Anyway, if I can keep this up then, I hope to see the fruits of my labour this coming year end...~

Wish me luck!