Showing posts with label sadness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sadness. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Frustrated

Just when I thought my day was going to turn out great it sours like fish left out overnight to rot. It started out just like any other day, only better? I guess that you can say that... It lasted from morning till evening.

Woke up without incident, went for a drive around Labuan, looking at the beaches and places and crap and even went to the local mall to buy some stuff... I got a new bottle...


Same brand as my other bottle... Love it.

“So what?” is one of my fave quotes and things to say.

Then as I said, everything turned sour.

It was time for dinner, I smelt ayam kicap from the room upstairs so I was like “Whee! Food!”

To my dismay of course, it wasn’t the food that I was hoping for... It was the smell of the pork dish that we had last night (which I really hated, full of fats and chewy and tough as hell). I ate the damn pork dish the night before and was determined not to eat it again. Apart from the leftover meal, my ‘mum’ had cooked prawns (boiled, I HATE THAT) and cabbages (which I HATE MORE).

I looked around the table and found that there was absolutely nothing for me to eat! WTF LA! I’m hungry! I KNOW my mum helped out in the kitchen, I KNOW she cooked, I KNOW she knows I hate to eat cabbages and can’t eat boiled prawns!

I felt like crying then and there...

All I ate was a boiled egg which was served with the pork. How sad is that?
She’s my mum, she should know that I need to eat something else. I bet she thought that I would eat the pork, but she couldn’t have expected me to eat ONLY that?! And even if she didn’t cook, she could’ve said something!!!! She’s my mum for goodness sake!

I ate my boiled egg and rice, drank my water and headed upstairs.... And while I was sitting there finishing my water my dad leans over and asks me, as if it’s the most NORMAL thing to do.

“Are you done?”

I looked at him and wanted to scream. “YES, I”M DONE! I HAVE NOTHING TO EAT! OF COURSE I’M DONE YOU BASTARD! WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT ME TO EAT?! AIR?!”

I so mad and betrayed...

So I just mumbled. “Ya, there’s nothing else to eat...”

Then as if I couldn’t hear them from the kitchen, he says in Kadazan to my mum. “What is wrong with your daughter?”

WTF!!!!

Stupid, inconsiderate, selfish, fools!

The worst part is, they gave me like a LOT of rice! What the f*** do you want me to eat it with?! You want me to pour my water all over the rice coz I’m sure it’ll taste good!

A**holes...

FOOD is an IMPORTANT matter to me! Even if I’m not hungry and there’s no food that I can eat I get really upset... I don’t know why, I just do. Everyone knows I’m picky and I mean everyone... I make it a point to say that I am picky and mention things I can’t and won’t eat before anyone offers me anything.

And my MUM, who has looked after me since birth just left me there to starve!

They even have the nerve to offer me bread and snacks as a substitute for dinner!

IDIOTS!

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Condolences


This post might be up a little too late, but I would just like to wish condolences to my good friend, Bernice since she has just lost her beloved grandmother a few days ago. I couldn't find the words to say so I put off this post. It wasn't until I finished reading her post that I finally got an idea of what I wanted to say.
Though, I still don't think it's my place to say anything. So, I will just say this~
I'm sure that wherever your apo is in heaven now, I'm sure that she is looking down on you and smiling proudly as her little grand daughter has finally turned into a grown woman. Plus, now she gets to see you whenever she wants! She doesn't have to wait for you to visit her anymore... So, I'm sure she's happy~
:)