PIC OF THE DAY!

PIC OF THE DAY

This was today... 11.12.08 after our 3rd day f caroling~ ^^ Super fun.. We were walking home when we noticed that there were no cars on the road. SO we seized the oppurtunity and lay down on the road.... XD I'm in one of the other pictures~ Though I don't have it yet... It'll be up soon...

People in the picture: Daryl (standing),Fred (sitting), Sam, Raimo and Terrence (all lying down) and Patrick (the one with the guitar)

Time to turn my brain off...

It's been a stressful 2 weeks but finally my exams are over and it's safe to turn my brain off... No more thinking, memorising and calculating for another 2 months... ^^ Isn't life wonderful?

There's gonna be a career talk this Friday at our school and other schools are going to be attending too... St. Mary's boys school, Sung Siew and St. Michael.... Our school is going to be hosting it so we're all going to be running around this Friday.... It's in the afternoon, so none of us can go home and change. Were going to be in the hot hall, sweating and stinking up the place with BO.

I'm in charge of the PA system, I wonder who decided that because I have no experience handling the PA system... Of course, it's better than becoming the welcoming committee... I don't think I can wear a smile on my face for the required amount of time...

Honestly, I forgot all about this career talk until today... O_O Heck, I don't even know who is going to be giving the talk! All I know is Michelle (is that how you spell it?) is going to be there... I don't even know if the other Rotarians are going to go or not...

Hm.... Leaving that... I think I failed my Chemistry.... Add Maths is a must fail.. I couldn't answer most of the questions and just left them blank, including little smiley faces and words like 'Sorry, teacher.... I failed again' on the test paper... Wendy says that I got a 32... Wahaahahaha~ 8 more marks and I pass but still, I have no idea whether my mum is gonna be pissed or not. XD

Chemistry was a b*tch. I was bullcrapping the whole paper I think... I wouldn't be surprised if I got the same marks for Chemistry... Bet my mum wouldn't be happy about that... But what's done is done and the exams are now over... Whatever marks I get I can worry about later, right now I just need to turn my brain off and let it rest for a few weeks... XD

Can't wait till holidays!

Happy Birthday to ME!

Wahahaha~ It's ma B'day today!!! ^^ Of course, there's no cause for celebration... -.- I have tests today... And it was Chemistry... I'm taking some time off studying to wish myself a happy birthday even if I think I failed my Chemistry paper 2... ^^''

Oh well, even if I failed that one I still have paper 1 and paper 3 to go... Hope I do better on those papers~ XD

Anyway... I haven't been posting a lot because I've been busy with other things and studying takes up most of my holidays, along with long hours spent drooling in front of the telly... XD

But, once my exams are over, I'm going to switch my brain off and just go online everyday... Btw, my exams end next Wednesday so I can't wait~ ^^

Wee~~~

Frustrated

Just when I thought my day was going to turn out great it sours like fish left out overnight to rot. It started out just like any other day, only better? I guess that you can say that... It lasted from morning till evening.

Woke up without incident, went for a drive around Labuan, looking at the beaches and places and crap and even went to the local mall to buy some stuff... I got a new bottle...

Same brand as my other bottle... Love it.

“So what?” is one of my fave quotes and things to say.

Then as I said, everything turned sour.

It was time for dinner, I smelt ayam kicap from the room upstairs so I was like “Whee! Food!”

To my dismay of course, it wasn’t the food that I was hoping for... It was the smell of the pork dish that we had last night (which I really hated, full of fats and chewy and tough as hell). I ate the damn pork dish the night before and was determined not to eat it again. Apart from the leftover meal, my ‘mum’ had cooked prawns (boiled, I HATE THAT) and cabbages (which I HATE MORE).

I looked around the table and found that there was absolutely nothing for me to eat! WTF LA! I’m hungry! I KNOW my mum helped out in the kitchen, I KNOW she cooked, I KNOW she knows I hate to eat cabbages and can’t eat boiled prawns!

I felt like crying then and there...

All I ate was a boiled egg which was served with the pork. How sad is that?
She’s my mum, she should know that I need to eat something else. I bet she thought that I would eat the pork, but she couldn’t have expected me to eat ONLY that?! And even if she didn’t cook, she could’ve said something!!!! She’s my mum for goodness sake!

I ate my boiled egg and rice, drank my water and headed upstairs.... And while I was sitting there finishing my water my dad leans over and asks me, as if it’s the most NORMAL thing to do.

“Are you done?”

I looked at him and wanted to scream. “YES, I”M DONE! I HAVE NOTHING TO EAT! OF COURSE I’M DONE YOU BASTARD! WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT ME TO EAT?! AIR?!”

I so mad and betrayed...

So I just mumbled. “Ya, there’s nothing else to eat...”

Then as if I couldn’t hear them from the kitchen, he says in Kadazan to my mum. “What is wrong with your daughter?”

WTF!!!!

Stupid, inconsiderate, selfish, fools!

The worst part is, they gave me like a LOT of rice! What the f*** do you want me to eat it with?! You want me to pour my water all over the rice coz I’m sure it’ll taste good!

A**holes...

FOOD is an IMPORTANT matter to me! Even if I’m not hungry and there’s no food that I can eat I get really upset... I don’t know why, I just do. Everyone knows I’m picky and I mean everyone... I make it a point to say that I am picky and mention things I can’t and won’t eat before anyone offers me anything.

And my MUM, who has looked after me since birth just left me there to starve!

They even have the nerve to offer me bread and snacks as a substitute for dinner!

IDIOTS!

Merdeka Day Post Mortem

PIC OF THE DAY

Mr. Fung dressed as a British person for national day.. Adorable. The moustache is fake btw...

Lol

Merdeka Day Celebration

PIC OF THE DAY

Kat being silly during tuition

*****

I've been gone for a pretty long time for a host of reasons. Busy with school work and tests to prepare for, lazy, no Internet connection, writer's block etc.

But now I'm back, accompanied by a whole new list of things to complain about. Haha~ It seems to me that complaining is the only thing I do when I'm writing....

This post won't be any different. As the title says, Merdeka Day Celebration, I'm going to complain about that...

Firstly, why on Earth are they celebrating Merdeka Day (tomorrow;20 September 2008) when Merdeka was like a really long time ago, like 31st August 2008!!!! It's stupid and inconvenient.... I mean, I understand the government trying to put some patriotism into the students but what respectable teenager would want to go back to school on a SATURDAY just to waste their time standing in a hot hall, singing patriotic songs about our country when they could be sitting at home watching TV?!!! Or hanging out with friends in Mile 4?

I'm not going tomorrow... Despite being a prefect, I'm rebelling... The teachers said that it is going to be a very historic day because a representative of the Prime Minister. I emphasize the word representative. HELLO!?!!! It's not the bloody Prime Minister people!? It's just one of his mindless zombies doing the dirty work that he himself wouldn't prefer to do. That's the truth... He's too busy ruining our politics to visit a little convent school in a little town.

Heck, I think I would do the same if I were in his shoes...

We did the backdrop for the celebration tomorrow... In my opinion, even if I did help do it, it's ridiculous.... ^^'' It's the teachers fault for choosing loony people to do the backdrop for such an auspicious occasion. Our class is full of lunatics, especially the front row (which includes me). Were the ones that keep the class alive and twitching.

Exams are in 3 weeks and I'm still not preparing.... Haha~

Funfair & Yu Yuan Night

On Friday, I went to Yu Yuan Night with Bernice and her sis, Celine.... It was like a concert. The performances were good especially one of the skits they did. It was really funny. I'm not in the mood to go into details so just take my word that it was awesome. The other performances were just so and so... I didn't like the singing. And one of the skits was so emo it scared me. Literally, the whole hall was silent during the performance. It was horribly emo. The last dance performance was awesome though. Not really mouth opening but very good.

After that, I went to the funfair. FINALLY! Bern and I were really excited! Tagada was there!!! Wee~~ But the fair was empty and boring. If it wasn't for Tagada, I don't think anyone would go. Air Force 1 is out of the picture. Apparently someone died on it when the swinging part came loose. I don't know wether its true but since its not set up I guess it is... The best thing about Tagada now is that there is a guy that dances in the middle of the thing! He's sooooo cool! Ok,so he dances sembarangan but still, he even does jumps!!! I took a video from the outside of the ride but the next time I go, I wanna record from the inside~ Muahahahaha~

There's a rumor that Air Force 1 is going to be set up soon. But I don't know how reliable the source is so... I'm keeping my fingers crossed! ^^

Holidays are almost over~

T_T This Sunday is the last day of holidays... Why on Earth does it have to end so quick? I want it to be longer... I don't mind sitting on the couch day in and day out, staring at the TV like a mindless zombie. All that while watching reruns of the Olympic events that I've missed.

The funfair is open... Finally.... I really want to go... Too bad that they don't have Air Force 1 anymore...They still have Tagada though~^^ I hope that I can go and hang with my friends!! Hehee.... *dreams of Tagada*

Piccies of KL

It all begins here... These are some of the stuff that we brought... I, honestly packed as if I was moving into a new house... ^^''

This is me, happy and exited as can be.

Nyahahahaa~ This was on the plane. I didn't off my hp but I did change it to flight mode. Something that I learnt from Sherrina.

One of my fave pics from the plane. There are many more, including a take off video that I shot but I'm too lazy to post those so I have to make due with this... :P

The lobby of The Boulevard. Nothing short of breath taking? I guess... I really like it that's all...

The bed in my room~ I haven't taken any pics of my bed, but I will soon...

These are a few shots of the Voodolls(?) that I saw in one of the cool shops in Mid Valley. I took this in a shop called 'Room(s)'. It was awesome and really cool.. I didn't even know it existed!

This is the BIGGEST PostPet Keychain that I have ever seen! I want it! Too bad its pink... :/

One of the many giant sets in Mid Valley the day I arrived. The next day, they were gone and were replaced by facial merchandise..... There are other pictures. They were HUGE!

I'll post other piccies and some experiences later... When my back isn't aching.. XD

Coffee Bean

Coffee Bean, my Saviour!

As stated, I am in Coffee Bean at the moment, writing this post. Currently, drinking a pure chocolate non-coffee ice blend, sitting alone in a corner like some lost wanderer in an old fantasy story.

I am in KL right now. Yes, it's been a long time since I last updated. Initially, the hotel we were staying in, The Boulevard Hotel, is supposed to have Wi-Fi. But, not known by my father, we had to pay for the damn connection! So, I had to refrain myself for a couple of days from blogging. Until today, I couldn't take it any longer and I just had to go somewhere with free wifi!!!

And so, my journey takes me here. To Coffee Bean. My Saviour.

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We left for KL on the morning of the 17th of August at 9.00 am we went into the departure hall... I had to make a U-turn back to my house because I left my damned handphone... How dumb of me... -slaps own head-

The journey from Sandakan to KL was along and arduous one. We took an AirAsia flight, which meant free seating. And of all places, I was seated in front of a stupid kid who wouldn't let me get a wink of sleep cause he kept on kicking my seat. I swear I glared at him and he finally stopped for the remainder of the flight.

The Boulevard is awesome and chic. I love decor and the feel the rooms give you when you first enter them. The rooms may be a little small than I am used to, but I still like it. The room only had a queen/king(?) sized bed for my parents so they had to get another bed in just to accommodate me. I'm sleeping next to the window.

We then went for a walk in Mid Valley. Boulevard is connected to Mid Valley so we just had to make a couple of turns before we found ourselves in the shopping mall. My fave mall by the way. I took a lot of piccies but I'll get to posting that later...

Had fun walking on my own. At least now I am finally old enough to do so. ^^ Heehee~ I didn't enjoy my second day though. We went to Bukit Bintang and it was raining. Damned KL weather. I got wet and that virtually ruined the whole day for me. And once something ruins my day, I ruin everyone else'sday. Stupid rain.

Bought lotsa stuff... And that's all I can say.

Pic of the Day

Random pictures

Hmmm... Since I am bored at the moment, I wanna post some random pictures that I have taken and am particularly proud of~ Enjoy! XD This was supposed to be a picture of an orchid in my backyard, instead it became like this and I converted it into a painting with my phone.
Before going to bed, I took this... This pic was also converted to paint style.

In the backyard. Converted.

This was supposed to be a pic of the yellow flower on the right, but it turned out this way, but I'm happy all the same~^^

**All pics were taken using a Sony Ericsson W910i phone~

Wootness!! (III)

Wootness!!! 1 more day till holidays!!!!! Muahahahhahahhahhahaa~

Thoughts

We as students are expected to be well mannered, polite, punctual and all that nice crap that our teachers are always telling us. But what about the teachers? Don't they need to be well mannered? Polite? Punctual? Don't these rules apply to them as well? As educators of the next generation, don't they have to set the bar for us and be good examples for the leaders of tomorrow?

They tell you that you have to greet any teachers that you meet and yet they do not return the greeting. I never knew that grunting was a greeting as well. They tell you that you have to be on time to school and yet they come into class about half an hour late. Does that qualify as punctual. They tell you that you have to be considerate of others and yet they expect you to be there to tend to their every needs when it suits them. We have stuff we need to do too! They expect you to finish all your assignments and projects saying that it's your responsibility, and yet they never finish marking the books you handed in 3 months ago!

How do you expect students to respect you when you don't even set a good example for us to follow?

Recent studies have shown that students, the teens, are looking for someone that they can look up to. A confidant in which they can put their trust into. If they can't find a role model in their home, they look to their teachers. But what if they can't find it in their teachers either.

I didn't have to look far for a role model. My family is full of great role models. I look up to my brothers and parents, feeding on their stories and experiences. I learn from them, as I would like to learn from my teachers. Though, all I've learned is that life is hard and that people like them don't make it any easier for the rest of us.

Maybe I should thank them?

I've learned to deal with all their idiocy. Their quirks. Their bad habits. They've made me somewhat patient.

At least now I'm better at ignoring idiots.

On the OLYMPICS!

The Olympics were supposed to be the most anticipated event of the year. And it is, I think everyone I knew were watching the opening ceremony last night. I have to admit, the Chinese had it! It was spectacular and I am impressed by the way they were able to co-operate and work together to make the whole thing a success. They reminded me of an army of fire ants marching off into the forest to scavenge. It was awesome! Though, for some reason or another, I started to fall asleep right in the middle of the performances.

Since I was still having tests at the time, I put it down to pure fatigue from thinking and processing the whole day. Then again, it could have been because some of the performances were boring? Hm.... That's a possibility, but judging by how my whole class was mumbling about the awesome performance the Chinese put on last night, I think it's because of fatigue.

Anyway, before I continue rambling any longer, I would just like to wish all the hopeful athletes in China right now the best of luck! Don't break a leg, you might be needing it!

Worries

ISH...

I'm feeling really crappy these last few days... It's so stressful being a student.... And the teachers aren't making it any easier either... Well, it's not like I'm expecting that things are going to become simpler as I age, it's just going to get harder and harder. Frik la~

Also, to add to my worries, I'm going to have Gempur next week. Damn tests... The worst thing is, when I'm supposed to be studying, I'm here, online... Writing a blog entry. How dumb am I?

I haven't even studied enough yet... I'm tired of studying... I just wanna lie down in bed and enjoy my books, which I never seem to be able to finish by the way. It's hard to be a teenager and balance your life and school. You can't have both, you have to chose either one. Well, in my case at least. I can't pay attention to both, it's too stressful...

Well I'd better go and study my ass off... Stupid Bio so many chapters... Stupid Add Maths... SO hard...

So NOISY!

After sitting down in my room today, with the fan turned off, I just sat in silence listening to the sounds around me. I never really stopped to appreciate the silence and peace that static musty air gives you. I live in a world full of noise and so do you, but usually, like anyone else who has a life, we ignore the sounds around us. The honks, bonks, crash, bangs, bumps and clangs of life.

I felt peaceful lying down on my bed looking at the ceiling. It was so quiet, I swear that I could hear the air moving in and out of my ears. I was also quite surprised at how tolerant I was, how tolerant everyone was with all the noise. In school, I am bombarded with hundreds of sounds. Teens gossiping, teachers scolding, construction, traffic on the road, screams, laughs, giggles, scraping and all the like. At home, I have an array of sounds coming from all the animals. I have a cat, 3 dogs including 5 whining puppies and a noisy scraping hamster. Not forgetting the TV and all that music blasting from my headphones into my ears too! It's like sound pollution heaven, and that's only in Sandakan! I wonder how bad the pollution would be in New York... That, definitely could cause hearing damage.

Heck, with all this noise, I wouldn't be surprised that when I'm old and probably crippled, I'd be at least half deaf. Or worse case scenario I'd be legally deaf by 50.

Anyhow, from now on I would definitely look after my ears. Without them, I might not be able to appreciate the beauty of music, which has become one of my obsessions. And as a teen, that would be like giving an innocent a life sentence. So, I'll lower the TVs volume, less head phone time and if possible bring ear plugs to school.

New Year's Resolution

Some people decide on their New Years resolutions, days before the actual event. Haha... Not me... I've decided a full 6 months after the 1st of January. Quite late actually.

Honestly, I've never bothered with resolutions... I mean, why bother writing down a list of things you want to do or want to be in the coming year when you're just going to misplace the paper somewhere?! All you're succeeding in is incresing the amount of trees being cut down just do write your dumb resolution. Ok, ok so some people might take this New Years resolution thing seriously. But how many?

How many actually take the time to sit down and read what they had written and actually take the necessary steps to achieve them? I'm not one of them that's for sure... Before at least.

Something came about that made me want to change my ways. Change my perspective and try to restrict my horizon rather than broaden it. Cause I've learnt that my brain works in peculiar ways. If I know too much, my brain automatically turns off and I just focus on the weaknesses of anyone else who's IQs aren't up to par. Bad habit right? It's this bad habit that brought on my unavoidable downfall. That and the fact that I have the will power of an Amoeba.

Our school had just handed out our first semester report cards, I don't know how many weeks ago. Riding in the car with my mum knowing that I have failed the exams was really awkward. Honestly, and I'm not trying to brag or anything, I've never failed an examination before.... Ever.... In my entire life. Well, at least during my high school years anyway. I've failed tests before,mostly Add Maths the Devils subject. Additional Mathematics is the root of this problem, but I've never faced a problem to this extent... I only got 33% for the subject. How sad is that?

I entered the classroom with my mum, we waited for our turn. I actually, already knew my class ranking. I got number 12... A whole new low for me. I've never been in the top 20 spot before... During my time in high school, I have never gotten this low in the rankings. I've always been top 10 but I guess now, I can't even say that. Needless to say, my mum wasn't at all happy with me. I wasn't happy with myself either.

As we left the school grounds and made our way across the overhead bridge, a heavy feeling started to form inside of me. It felt like my heart was being squeezed painfully. I realised that it was the desire to do better. To not fail again.

I went into the car, the feeling in my chest not leaving, like a parasite eating away at me from the inside out. I decided then and there to try better in the second semester and at least get top 10 even if I can't pass my Add Maths.

Not to brag or anything, but I have been making some progress in areas concerning homework and attention span during classes. I've made an effort to prepare for tests, finish homework and not fall asleep during class, which is still posing as a problem for me. No matter how early I went to bed the night before.

Anyway, if I can keep this up then, I hope to see the fruits of my labour this coming year end...~

Wish me luck!

Who left the tables out?!

It's Monday. The very first day of the week. I get to school early in the morning to find some of the tables arranged together with some chairs outside my class. So in my mind I'm going, "What the heck?" I enter the classroom to find that the early birds have already claimed some of the chairs and tables that were left in the class as their own. Making the classroom look quite bare in places where there were no tables.

After arranging my row of tables I went about my business as usual, its like only 6.00 am. School doesn't start till 6.45 am. Yes, we do get up ridiculously early just to go to school. In my opinion, I think it's inhumane, the students living in Sabah have to wake up earlier to leave for school... Anyway, slowly the class starts to fill up with noisy students. Each having their own personal voice decibel. Pretty soon, I wasn't able to hear myself think. As was the tradition of our class.

Then, the bell rang, signifying the start of the school day and also the start of our Monday morning assembly. Which all the students, including me despite being a prefect, were dreading. I swear they were all walking abnormally slow when the time came to enter the hall. You should see them during recess, they run like its the end of the world.

End of assembly, and everyone reluctantly go back to their classes. I enter my class and see the tables still outside. Nobody had bothered to even help with lifting the tables despite the giant gaps in the middle of the classroom. Of course, I was one of them. Not proud of it by the way, but I have now realised that my class is full of self centered, hypocritical people who don't help without being asked. Once I realised this, I immediately went outside and began hauling the tables inside while shaking my head.

Out of the 45 people in my class, not one had stood up to help carry the tables. Instead, all of them refused to even take notice and just went about their noisy business.

I have no idea where this type of attitude came from. All I know is that I'm really surprised at the students of 4A.

Shy or just selfish?

I don't have a best friend. I find it unfair for anyone else who is 'just' my friend so I don't choose.

That is what I tell people... But the fact is...

I have very close friend.... I've been with her through thick and thin, shared my deepest and inner most secrets with her and have even let her stay in my house.It's so easy to talk to her, and I tell her just about everything! If that isn't a best friend, I don't know what is...

The thing is, I don't embrace this fact. I actually deny it. Even if she does say that I am her best friend, and as much as I want to tell her the same thing, I can't. Am I selfish? Or just shy to admit my feelings after denying it for so long?

I plan to tell her someday... But I don't know when... She deserves to know that I do appreciate her and love her for the good friend that she is. Deserves to know that I too think of her as a best friend...

I just realised this today and I can't get it off my mind. I feel so dumb not having noticed this earlier...