Second Thoughts

Being free isn't what it's cracked up to be.... O_O I'm bored to death with going online everyday and staying up till the sun rises. The routine is getting a little old. Now, if only I could drive.... I would be able to go out by myself and have fun. Though where would I go?

Driving all the way to Mile 4 seems like a waste of time and gas. So it seems to me, staying home and going online is the only option I have....

Now I have some Caroling stuff to attend to... The guys wanted to vote for me as a leader but I was like "NO!" All my brothers have gone through it... But I'm not a leader. I'm a follower and I'm proud of it! I hate taking charge of situations... Makes my life harder and just puts stress on me. I'm not good at handling stress and I have the temper of a bull. I'm definitely not suited to be a leader of a bunch of kids....

So they chose Roy.... I wonder if that's how you spell his name. He's a year younger than me but since he was chosen I bet everyone agreed! the thing is.... I'm not the only 16 year old in my neighbourhood you know! There are like 2 other people the same age as me, but apparently they aren't that qualified for the job (they're idiots). I agree though... They aren't they best candidates... ^^''

They asked me to attend a practice today though... ^^ At least they're being friendly... Or is it because they need me? Lol... And I saw Daryl shirtless today.... O_O Kinda taken back by the image... It's not that he doesn't look good... He looked.... Waaa~~ He became a man~ kekeke~

This is just another thing I wanna add to my wish list... I want an iPod!!! God! Get me an iPod! A black/white/red one!

Wish List

I saw this cute little thing in a shop in Mid Valley... I really wanted it but I thought better of it. Why should I waste my money on a teddy bear. I regret it now of course... >_<
This is from one of my fave shops.... I forgot the name but the shop has wonderful styles that I like.... :D Yes, these are guys clothes but my mum and dad agree that they look nice.... I'm buying them next time! <3

I like guys clothes.... Their styles are simple and uncomplicated and comfortable... ^^

Pic of the Day

PIC OF THE DAY

Career Talk

We had a Career Talk last Friday, which was organised by the Interact Club or rather the Rotary Club of Sandakan. It was supposed to be a talk for the Form 5 and Form 4 which were going to be leaving school soon. But we had Form 3 attending. There were 4 schools participating in this activity... I think I mentioned it before... Whatever, I'll just mention them again.

They were Sung Siew, St. Michael, St. Mary's Boys and St. Cecilia Convent. The talk itself was interesting, but because the screen was so tiny, the people in the back (including me) couldn't even make out the writing. I was squinting and I couldn't see... Though, I am wearing glasses so that must be one reason. [Note to self: Get eyes checked].

We also had foreigners come to our school to give talks. There were 5 but only 4 gave talks to us. They were from Denmark, 2 women and 2 (incredibly handsome) men. Keke~ Obviously the girls were all ogling at the men (cause they were super hot). I find it interesting at how fast convent school girls swarm at every guy that comes within 5 feet of them. 3 feet and you'd probably be seeing them getting seisures. Fortunately, I am not one of those girls. Honestly, the experience was nice and they were hot, but I was more interested in Denmark.

From what I heard, Denmark is a place with a lot of free stuff provided by the government, cold winters (below 0) and high taxes. The free stuff must be balanced by the taxes I guess... But the Danish (is that right?) government handles any education fees that you have... So that means free education and huge benefits. I quote "As long as we have education..."

My mouth literally dropped open at the statement. I mean, that's a cool thing! Imagine if Malaysia had those type of policies! Everyone would be educated and people who couldn't afford education could easily send their kids to school! I don't want to think about the negative side of it, I'm quite happy with the image in my head. All fluffy and nice...

They left soon after their talk. They took many pictures with everyone but frankly I wasn't interested. These few days, I haven't been interested in many things... My brain literally shut itself down after exams... We haven't finished our syllabuses either... But that's another subject... The main point is, they were taking pictures with everyone but I don't know whether I regret not taking pictures or not... Lol...

Whatever....

Time to turn my brain off...

It's been a stressful 2 weeks but finally my exams are over and it's safe to turn my brain off... No more thinking, memorising and calculating for another 2 months... ^^ Isn't life wonderful?

There's gonna be a career talk this Friday at our school and other schools are going to be attending too... St. Mary's boys school, Sung Siew and St. Michael.... Our school is going to be hosting it so we're all going to be running around this Friday.... It's in the afternoon, so none of us can go home and change. Were going to be in the hot hall, sweating and stinking up the place with BO.

I'm in charge of the PA system, I wonder who decided that because I have no experience handling the PA system... Of course, it's better than becoming the welcoming committee... I don't think I can wear a smile on my face for the required amount of time...

Honestly, I forgot all about this career talk until today... O_O Heck, I don't even know who is going to be giving the talk! All I know is Michelle (is that how you spell it?) is going to be there... I don't even know if the other Rotarians are going to go or not...

Hm.... Leaving that... I think I failed my Chemistry.... Add Maths is a must fail.. I couldn't answer most of the questions and just left them blank, including little smiley faces and words like 'Sorry, teacher.... I failed again' on the test paper... Wendy says that I got a 32... Wahaahahaha~ 8 more marks and I pass but still, I have no idea whether my mum is gonna be pissed or not. XD

Chemistry was a b*tch. I was bullcrapping the whole paper I think... I wouldn't be surprised if I got the same marks for Chemistry... Bet my mum wouldn't be happy about that... But what's done is done and the exams are now over... Whatever marks I get I can worry about later, right now I just need to turn my brain off and let it rest for a few weeks... XD

Can't wait till holidays!

Happy Birthday to ME!

Wahahaha~ It's ma B'day today!!! ^^ Of course, there's no cause for celebration... -.- I have tests today... And it was Chemistry... I'm taking some time off studying to wish myself a happy birthday even if I think I failed my Chemistry paper 2... ^^''

Oh well, even if I failed that one I still have paper 1 and paper 3 to go... Hope I do better on those papers~ XD

Anyway... I haven't been posting a lot because I've been busy with other things and studying takes up most of my holidays, along with long hours spent drooling in front of the telly... XD

But, once my exams are over, I'm going to switch my brain off and just go online everyday... Btw, my exams end next Wednesday so I can't wait~ ^^

Wee~~~

Frustrated

Just when I thought my day was going to turn out great it sours like fish left out overnight to rot. It started out just like any other day, only better? I guess that you can say that... It lasted from morning till evening.

Woke up without incident, went for a drive around Labuan, looking at the beaches and places and crap and even went to the local mall to buy some stuff... I got a new bottle...

Same brand as my other bottle... Love it.

“So what?” is one of my fave quotes and things to say.

Then as I said, everything turned sour.

It was time for dinner, I smelt ayam kicap from the room upstairs so I was like “Whee! Food!”

To my dismay of course, it wasn’t the food that I was hoping for... It was the smell of the pork dish that we had last night (which I really hated, full of fats and chewy and tough as hell). I ate the damn pork dish the night before and was determined not to eat it again. Apart from the leftover meal, my ‘mum’ had cooked prawns (boiled, I HATE THAT) and cabbages (which I HATE MORE).

I looked around the table and found that there was absolutely nothing for me to eat! WTF LA! I’m hungry! I KNOW my mum helped out in the kitchen, I KNOW she cooked, I KNOW she knows I hate to eat cabbages and can’t eat boiled prawns!

I felt like crying then and there...

All I ate was a boiled egg which was served with the pork. How sad is that?
She’s my mum, she should know that I need to eat something else. I bet she thought that I would eat the pork, but she couldn’t have expected me to eat ONLY that?! And even if she didn’t cook, she could’ve said something!!!! She’s my mum for goodness sake!

I ate my boiled egg and rice, drank my water and headed upstairs.... And while I was sitting there finishing my water my dad leans over and asks me, as if it’s the most NORMAL thing to do.

“Are you done?”

I looked at him and wanted to scream. “YES, I”M DONE! I HAVE NOTHING TO EAT! OF COURSE I’M DONE YOU BASTARD! WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT ME TO EAT?! AIR?!”

I so mad and betrayed...

So I just mumbled. “Ya, there’s nothing else to eat...”

Then as if I couldn’t hear them from the kitchen, he says in Kadazan to my mum. “What is wrong with your daughter?”

WTF!!!!

Stupid, inconsiderate, selfish, fools!

The worst part is, they gave me like a LOT of rice! What the f*** do you want me to eat it with?! You want me to pour my water all over the rice coz I’m sure it’ll taste good!

A**holes...

FOOD is an IMPORTANT matter to me! Even if I’m not hungry and there’s no food that I can eat I get really upset... I don’t know why, I just do. Everyone knows I’m picky and I mean everyone... I make it a point to say that I am picky and mention things I can’t and won’t eat before anyone offers me anything.

And my MUM, who has looked after me since birth just left me there to starve!

They even have the nerve to offer me bread and snacks as a substitute for dinner!

IDIOTS!