Second Thoughts

Being free isn't what it's cracked up to be.... O_O I'm bored to death with going online everyday and staying up till the sun rises. The routine is getting a little old. Now, if only I could drive.... I would be able to go out by myself and have fun. Though where would I go?

Driving all the way to Mile 4 seems like a waste of time and gas. So it seems to me, staying home and going online is the only option I have....

Now I have some Caroling stuff to attend to... The guys wanted to vote for me as a leader but I was like "NO!" All my brothers have gone through it... But I'm not a leader. I'm a follower and I'm proud of it! I hate taking charge of situations... Makes my life harder and just puts stress on me. I'm not good at handling stress and I have the temper of a bull. I'm definitely not suited to be a leader of a bunch of kids....

So they chose Roy.... I wonder if that's how you spell his name. He's a year younger than me but since he was chosen I bet everyone agreed! the thing is.... I'm not the only 16 year old in my neighbourhood you know! There are like 2 other people the same age as me, but apparently they aren't that qualified for the job (they're idiots). I agree though... They aren't they best candidates... ^^''

They asked me to attend a practice today though... ^^ At least they're being friendly... Or is it because they need me? Lol... And I saw Daryl shirtless today.... O_O Kinda taken back by the image... It's not that he doesn't look good... He looked.... Waaa~~ He became a man~ kekeke~

This is just another thing I wanna add to my wish list... I want an iPod!!! God! Get me an iPod! A black/white/red one!

Wish List

I saw this cute little thing in a shop in Mid Valley... I really wanted it but I thought better of it. Why should I waste my money on a teddy bear. I regret it now of course... >_<
This is from one of my fave shops.... I forgot the name but the shop has wonderful styles that I like.... :D Yes, these are guys clothes but my mum and dad agree that they look nice.... I'm buying them next time! <3

I like guys clothes.... Their styles are simple and uncomplicated and comfortable... ^^

Time to turn my brain off...

It's been a stressful 2 weeks but finally my exams are over and it's safe to turn my brain off... No more thinking, memorising and calculating for another 2 months... ^^ Isn't life wonderful?

There's gonna be a career talk this Friday at our school and other schools are going to be attending too... St. Mary's boys school, Sung Siew and St. Michael.... Our school is going to be hosting it so we're all going to be running around this Friday.... It's in the afternoon, so none of us can go home and change. Were going to be in the hot hall, sweating and stinking up the place with BO.

I'm in charge of the PA system, I wonder who decided that because I have no experience handling the PA system... Of course, it's better than becoming the welcoming committee... I don't think I can wear a smile on my face for the required amount of time...

Honestly, I forgot all about this career talk until today... O_O Heck, I don't even know who is going to be giving the talk! All I know is Michelle (is that how you spell it?) is going to be there... I don't even know if the other Rotarians are going to go or not...

Hm.... Leaving that... I think I failed my Chemistry.... Add Maths is a must fail.. I couldn't answer most of the questions and just left them blank, including little smiley faces and words like 'Sorry, teacher.... I failed again' on the test paper... Wendy says that I got a 32... Wahaahahaha~ 8 more marks and I pass but still, I have no idea whether my mum is gonna be pissed or not. XD

Chemistry was a b*tch. I was bullcrapping the whole paper I think... I wouldn't be surprised if I got the same marks for Chemistry... Bet my mum wouldn't be happy about that... But what's done is done and the exams are now over... Whatever marks I get I can worry about later, right now I just need to turn my brain off and let it rest for a few weeks... XD

Can't wait till holidays!

Frustrated

Just when I thought my day was going to turn out great it sours like fish left out overnight to rot. It started out just like any other day, only better? I guess that you can say that... It lasted from morning till evening.

Woke up without incident, went for a drive around Labuan, looking at the beaches and places and crap and even went to the local mall to buy some stuff... I got a new bottle...

Same brand as my other bottle... Love it.

“So what?” is one of my fave quotes and things to say.

Then as I said, everything turned sour.

It was time for dinner, I smelt ayam kicap from the room upstairs so I was like “Whee! Food!”

To my dismay of course, it wasn’t the food that I was hoping for... It was the smell of the pork dish that we had last night (which I really hated, full of fats and chewy and tough as hell). I ate the damn pork dish the night before and was determined not to eat it again. Apart from the leftover meal, my ‘mum’ had cooked prawns (boiled, I HATE THAT) and cabbages (which I HATE MORE).

I looked around the table and found that there was absolutely nothing for me to eat! WTF LA! I’m hungry! I KNOW my mum helped out in the kitchen, I KNOW she cooked, I KNOW she knows I hate to eat cabbages and can’t eat boiled prawns!

I felt like crying then and there...

All I ate was a boiled egg which was served with the pork. How sad is that?
She’s my mum, she should know that I need to eat something else. I bet she thought that I would eat the pork, but she couldn’t have expected me to eat ONLY that?! And even if she didn’t cook, she could’ve said something!!!! She’s my mum for goodness sake!

I ate my boiled egg and rice, drank my water and headed upstairs.... And while I was sitting there finishing my water my dad leans over and asks me, as if it’s the most NORMAL thing to do.

“Are you done?”

I looked at him and wanted to scream. “YES, I”M DONE! I HAVE NOTHING TO EAT! OF COURSE I’M DONE YOU BASTARD! WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT ME TO EAT?! AIR?!”

I so mad and betrayed...

So I just mumbled. “Ya, there’s nothing else to eat...”

Then as if I couldn’t hear them from the kitchen, he says in Kadazan to my mum. “What is wrong with your daughter?”

WTF!!!!

Stupid, inconsiderate, selfish, fools!

The worst part is, they gave me like a LOT of rice! What the f*** do you want me to eat it with?! You want me to pour my water all over the rice coz I’m sure it’ll taste good!

A**holes...

FOOD is an IMPORTANT matter to me! Even if I’m not hungry and there’s no food that I can eat I get really upset... I don’t know why, I just do. Everyone knows I’m picky and I mean everyone... I make it a point to say that I am picky and mention things I can’t and won’t eat before anyone offers me anything.

And my MUM, who has looked after me since birth just left me there to starve!

They even have the nerve to offer me bread and snacks as a substitute for dinner!

IDIOTS!

Merdeka Day Post Mortem

PIC OF THE DAY

Mr. Fung dressed as a British person for national day.. Adorable. The moustache is fake btw...

Lol

Merdeka Day Celebration

PIC OF THE DAY

Kat being silly during tuition

*****

I've been gone for a pretty long time for a host of reasons. Busy with school work and tests to prepare for, lazy, no Internet connection, writer's block etc.

But now I'm back, accompanied by a whole new list of things to complain about. Haha~ It seems to me that complaining is the only thing I do when I'm writing....

This post won't be any different. As the title says, Merdeka Day Celebration, I'm going to complain about that...

Firstly, why on Earth are they celebrating Merdeka Day (tomorrow;20 September 2008) when Merdeka was like a really long time ago, like 31st August 2008!!!! It's stupid and inconvenient.... I mean, I understand the government trying to put some patriotism into the students but what respectable teenager would want to go back to school on a SATURDAY just to waste their time standing in a hot hall, singing patriotic songs about our country when they could be sitting at home watching TV?!!! Or hanging out with friends in Mile 4?

I'm not going tomorrow... Despite being a prefect, I'm rebelling... The teachers said that it is going to be a very historic day because a representative of the Prime Minister. I emphasize the word representative. HELLO!?!!! It's not the bloody Prime Minister people!? It's just one of his mindless zombies doing the dirty work that he himself wouldn't prefer to do. That's the truth... He's too busy ruining our politics to visit a little convent school in a little town.

Heck, I think I would do the same if I were in his shoes...

We did the backdrop for the celebration tomorrow... In my opinion, even if I did help do it, it's ridiculous.... ^^'' It's the teachers fault for choosing loony people to do the backdrop for such an auspicious occasion. Our class is full of lunatics, especially the front row (which includes me). Were the ones that keep the class alive and twitching.

Exams are in 3 weeks and I'm still not preparing.... Haha~

Funfair & Yu Yuan Night

On Friday, I went to Yu Yuan Night with Bernice and her sis, Celine.... It was like a concert. The performances were good especially one of the skits they did. It was really funny. I'm not in the mood to go into details so just take my word that it was awesome. The other performances were just so and so... I didn't like the singing. And one of the skits was so emo it scared me. Literally, the whole hall was silent during the performance. It was horribly emo. The last dance performance was awesome though. Not really mouth opening but very good.

After that, I went to the funfair. FINALLY! Bern and I were really excited! Tagada was there!!! Wee~~ But the fair was empty and boring. If it wasn't for Tagada, I don't think anyone would go. Air Force 1 is out of the picture. Apparently someone died on it when the swinging part came loose. I don't know wether its true but since its not set up I guess it is... The best thing about Tagada now is that there is a guy that dances in the middle of the thing! He's sooooo cool! Ok,so he dances sembarangan but still, he even does jumps!!! I took a video from the outside of the ride but the next time I go, I wanna record from the inside~ Muahahahaha~

There's a rumor that Air Force 1 is going to be set up soon. But I don't know how reliable the source is so... I'm keeping my fingers crossed! ^^

Holidays are almost over~

T_T This Sunday is the last day of holidays... Why on Earth does it have to end so quick? I want it to be longer... I don't mind sitting on the couch day in and day out, staring at the TV like a mindless zombie. All that while watching reruns of the Olympic events that I've missed.

The funfair is open... Finally.... I really want to go... Too bad that they don't have Air Force 1 anymore...They still have Tagada though~^^ I hope that I can go and hang with my friends!! Hehee.... *dreams of Tagada*

Piccies of KL

It all begins here... These are some of the stuff that we brought... I, honestly packed as if I was moving into a new house... ^^''

This is me, happy and exited as can be.

Nyahahahaa~ This was on the plane. I didn't off my hp but I did change it to flight mode. Something that I learnt from Sherrina.

One of my fave pics from the plane. There are many more, including a take off video that I shot but I'm too lazy to post those so I have to make due with this... :P

The lobby of The Boulevard. Nothing short of breath taking? I guess... I really like it that's all...

The bed in my room~ I haven't taken any pics of my bed, but I will soon...

These are a few shots of the Voodolls(?) that I saw in one of the cool shops in Mid Valley. I took this in a shop called 'Room(s)'. It was awesome and really cool.. I didn't even know it existed!

This is the BIGGEST PostPet Keychain that I have ever seen! I want it! Too bad its pink... :/

One of the many giant sets in Mid Valley the day I arrived. The next day, they were gone and were replaced by facial merchandise..... There are other pictures. They were HUGE!

I'll post other piccies and some experiences later... When my back isn't aching.. XD

Coffee Bean

Coffee Bean, my Saviour!

As stated, I am in Coffee Bean at the moment, writing this post. Currently, drinking a pure chocolate non-coffee ice blend, sitting alone in a corner like some lost wanderer in an old fantasy story.

I am in KL right now. Yes, it's been a long time since I last updated. Initially, the hotel we were staying in, The Boulevard Hotel, is supposed to have Wi-Fi. But, not known by my father, we had to pay for the damn connection! So, I had to refrain myself for a couple of days from blogging. Until today, I couldn't take it any longer and I just had to go somewhere with free wifi!!!

And so, my journey takes me here. To Coffee Bean. My Saviour.

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We left for KL on the morning of the 17th of August at 9.00 am we went into the departure hall... I had to make a U-turn back to my house because I left my damned handphone... How dumb of me... -slaps own head-

The journey from Sandakan to KL was along and arduous one. We took an AirAsia flight, which meant free seating. And of all places, I was seated in front of a stupid kid who wouldn't let me get a wink of sleep cause he kept on kicking my seat. I swear I glared at him and he finally stopped for the remainder of the flight.

The Boulevard is awesome and chic. I love decor and the feel the rooms give you when you first enter them. The rooms may be a little small than I am used to, but I still like it. The room only had a queen/king(?) sized bed for my parents so they had to get another bed in just to accommodate me. I'm sleeping next to the window.

We then went for a walk in Mid Valley. Boulevard is connected to Mid Valley so we just had to make a couple of turns before we found ourselves in the shopping mall. My fave mall by the way. I took a lot of piccies but I'll get to posting that later...

Had fun walking on my own. At least now I am finally old enough to do so. ^^ Heehee~ I didn't enjoy my second day though. We went to Bukit Bintang and it was raining. Damned KL weather. I got wet and that virtually ruined the whole day for me. And once something ruins my day, I ruin everyone else'sday. Stupid rain.

Bought lotsa stuff... And that's all I can say.

Pic of the Day

WOOTNESS!!!

ITS HOLIDAY!!!!

Puppies Incoming! (II)

Woot! Once again, Abi's puppies!!!! *claps*

I was supposed to upload these with the other batch of pics but I forgot... Even us teens are getting senile...

Above, is the puppy we call 'Kurap'. We call her that because her tail is bald as it has a skin disease.... It's getting better now tho~
From left to right, Blackie (the only one with a nice tail), Negro and Buta... I think...

This is Buta.~ (above)

This is my fave pic! They're all asleep and arranged!! Wahahahaha~

This is Blackie and Besar... Asleep before I woke Blackie...:P Oops~

Hehee~ This is the full shot of the pic above!

This is Kurap again~

Random pictures

Hmmm... Since I am bored at the moment, I wanna post some random pictures that I have taken and am particularly proud of~ Enjoy! XD This was supposed to be a picture of an orchid in my backyard, instead it became like this and I converted it into a painting with my phone.
Before going to bed, I took this... This pic was also converted to paint style.

In the backyard. Converted.

This was supposed to be a pic of the yellow flower on the right, but it turned out this way, but I'm happy all the same~^^

**All pics were taken using a Sony Ericsson W910i phone~

Wootness!! (III)

Wootness!!! 1 more day till holidays!!!!! Muahahahhahahhahhahaa~

Puppies Incoming!

As the title says, 'Puppies Incoming!' Muahahahhahaa~~~ Our dog, Abi (bottom) just gave birth a little while ago, actually about a couple of months ago, to 5 little pups!!! 3 white and 2 black. Unfortunately, we are not able to keep them so we're going to give them away soon... Don't know when though, but I hope that it's not soon! ~^^~ The pic (above) is Abi and her puppies, the 3 white ones are the only pups you can see at the moment, but the other 2 were on the other side~
This is 'Besar'. We call her that because she's the biggest of the lot and also the most mischievous.

This is 'Negro'. Haha~ Her hair is curly so we call her that~ She's the most laid back and is the 2nd biggest~^^

This is Besar again~

This is Besar (bottom left) and Negro.

They seem to be the only one willing to sit still for pictures~

This is Negro and Buta(right). Buta, as his name suggests, is blind in one eye... Some kind of infection has taken his eye... T_T


That's all the pics I have at this moment of the puppies. I will upload more once the other 2 decide to keep still and produce non-blurry, alien-like pics....^^

Wootness! (II)

Wootness!!

2 more days till holidays start!!!

:drool:

Condolences

This post might be up a little too late, but I would just like to wish condolences to my good friend, Bernice since she has just lost her beloved grandmother a few days ago. I couldn't find the words to say so I put off this post. It wasn't until I finished reading her post that I finally got an idea of what I wanted to say.

Though, I still don't think it's my place to say anything. So, I will just say this~

I'm sure that wherever your apo is in heaven now, I'm sure that she is looking down on you and smiling proudly as her little grand daughter has finally turned into a grown woman. Plus, now she gets to see you whenever she wants! She doesn't have to wait for you to visit her anymore... So, I'm sure she's happy~

:)

Thoughts

We as students are expected to be well mannered, polite, punctual and all that nice crap that our teachers are always telling us. But what about the teachers? Don't they need to be well mannered? Polite? Punctual? Don't these rules apply to them as well? As educators of the next generation, don't they have to set the bar for us and be good examples for the leaders of tomorrow?

They tell you that you have to greet any teachers that you meet and yet they do not return the greeting. I never knew that grunting was a greeting as well. They tell you that you have to be on time to school and yet they come into class about half an hour late. Does that qualify as punctual. They tell you that you have to be considerate of others and yet they expect you to be there to tend to their every needs when it suits them. We have stuff we need to do too! They expect you to finish all your assignments and projects saying that it's your responsibility, and yet they never finish marking the books you handed in 3 months ago!

How do you expect students to respect you when you don't even set a good example for us to follow?

Recent studies have shown that students, the teens, are looking for someone that they can look up to. A confidant in which they can put their trust into. If they can't find a role model in their home, they look to their teachers. But what if they can't find it in their teachers either.

I didn't have to look far for a role model. My family is full of great role models. I look up to my brothers and parents, feeding on their stories and experiences. I learn from them, as I would like to learn from my teachers. Though, all I've learned is that life is hard and that people like them don't make it any easier for the rest of us.

Maybe I should thank them?

I've learned to deal with all their idiocy. Their quirks. Their bad habits. They've made me somewhat patient.

At least now I'm better at ignoring idiots.

On the OLYMPICS!

The Olympics were supposed to be the most anticipated event of the year. And it is, I think everyone I knew were watching the opening ceremony last night. I have to admit, the Chinese had it! It was spectacular and I am impressed by the way they were able to co-operate and work together to make the whole thing a success. They reminded me of an army of fire ants marching off into the forest to scavenge. It was awesome! Though, for some reason or another, I started to fall asleep right in the middle of the performances.

Since I was still having tests at the time, I put it down to pure fatigue from thinking and processing the whole day. Then again, it could have been because some of the performances were boring? Hm.... That's a possibility, but judging by how my whole class was mumbling about the awesome performance the Chinese put on last night, I think it's because of fatigue.

Anyway, before I continue rambling any longer, I would just like to wish all the hopeful athletes in China right now the best of luck! Don't break a leg, you might be needing it!