Updates~ 1#

There's no denying that I haven't been updating as much as I should be... This is a blog after all, and I'm guilty of leaving it unattended for so long... ^^ It's been months....

It's not like there's nothing interesting going on in my life... There's loads of stuff going on actually that I haven't been able to write down everything! My life is just one big ball of fun and drama.. ^^

Okay... So... remember the pic of the two hands with a spade and a heart on them? That was taken when Unnie and I (together with Mar) were working on the layout for the Merdeka thing about 4 months ago... Honestly, I wasn't too thrilled about doing the layout, but it was the only way we could cut class without being convicted, besides we could fool around and do whatever we wanted... ^^

Below are just some of the things they had me draw up to decorate the hall... Not like I'm proud of it or anything... There are actually 3 but I really don't like uploading photos on blogspot.. It's damn annoying.... -.-

Anyway, I drew an Indian, a Malay and a Chinese... ^^ All the 3 main races in Malaysia... It's to show unity and diversity and crap... I know the drawings are a little too animated, but it was the best I could do under short notice... (we only started decorating a day before the event took place). The teachers seemed okay with it though... ^^

Sadly, I never got to see the finished product... I didn't attend the Merdeka thing cause it was intruding on my Saturday morning TV time... Besides it was dumb and we had to sing an equally dumb song...

I wasn't going to miss my show for anything... ^^

Time to turn my brain off...

It's been a stressful 2 weeks but finally my exams are over and it's safe to turn my brain off... No more thinking, memorising and calculating for another 2 months... ^^ Isn't life wonderful?

There's gonna be a career talk this Friday at our school and other schools are going to be attending too... St. Mary's boys school, Sung Siew and St. Michael.... Our school is going to be hosting it so we're all going to be running around this Friday.... It's in the afternoon, so none of us can go home and change. Were going to be in the hot hall, sweating and stinking up the place with BO.

I'm in charge of the PA system, I wonder who decided that because I have no experience handling the PA system... Of course, it's better than becoming the welcoming committee... I don't think I can wear a smile on my face for the required amount of time...

Honestly, I forgot all about this career talk until today... O_O Heck, I don't even know who is going to be giving the talk! All I know is Michelle (is that how you spell it?) is going to be there... I don't even know if the other Rotarians are going to go or not...

Hm.... Leaving that... I think I failed my Chemistry.... Add Maths is a must fail.. I couldn't answer most of the questions and just left them blank, including little smiley faces and words like 'Sorry, teacher.... I failed again' on the test paper... Wendy says that I got a 32... Wahaahahaha~ 8 more marks and I pass but still, I have no idea whether my mum is gonna be pissed or not. XD

Chemistry was a b*tch. I was bullcrapping the whole paper I think... I wouldn't be surprised if I got the same marks for Chemistry... Bet my mum wouldn't be happy about that... But what's done is done and the exams are now over... Whatever marks I get I can worry about later, right now I just need to turn my brain off and let it rest for a few weeks... XD

Can't wait till holidays!

Happy Birthday to ME!

Wahahaha~ It's ma B'day today!!! ^^ Of course, there's no cause for celebration... -.- I have tests today... And it was Chemistry... I'm taking some time off studying to wish myself a happy birthday even if I think I failed my Chemistry paper 2... ^^''

Oh well, even if I failed that one I still have paper 1 and paper 3 to go... Hope I do better on those papers~ XD

Anyway... I haven't been posting a lot because I've been busy with other things and studying takes up most of my holidays, along with long hours spent drooling in front of the telly... XD

But, once my exams are over, I'm going to switch my brain off and just go online everyday... Btw, my exams end next Wednesday so I can't wait~ ^^

Wee~~~

Merdeka Day Post Mortem

PIC OF THE DAY

Mr. Fung dressed as a British person for national day.. Adorable. The moustache is fake btw...

Lol

Merdeka Day Celebration

PIC OF THE DAY

Kat being silly during tuition

*****

I've been gone for a pretty long time for a host of reasons. Busy with school work and tests to prepare for, lazy, no Internet connection, writer's block etc.

But now I'm back, accompanied by a whole new list of things to complain about. Haha~ It seems to me that complaining is the only thing I do when I'm writing....

This post won't be any different. As the title says, Merdeka Day Celebration, I'm going to complain about that...

Firstly, why on Earth are they celebrating Merdeka Day (tomorrow;20 September 2008) when Merdeka was like a really long time ago, like 31st August 2008!!!! It's stupid and inconvenient.... I mean, I understand the government trying to put some patriotism into the students but what respectable teenager would want to go back to school on a SATURDAY just to waste their time standing in a hot hall, singing patriotic songs about our country when they could be sitting at home watching TV?!!! Or hanging out with friends in Mile 4?

I'm not going tomorrow... Despite being a prefect, I'm rebelling... The teachers said that it is going to be a very historic day because a representative of the Prime Minister. I emphasize the word representative. HELLO!?!!! It's not the bloody Prime Minister people!? It's just one of his mindless zombies doing the dirty work that he himself wouldn't prefer to do. That's the truth... He's too busy ruining our politics to visit a little convent school in a little town.

Heck, I think I would do the same if I were in his shoes...

We did the backdrop for the celebration tomorrow... In my opinion, even if I did help do it, it's ridiculous.... ^^'' It's the teachers fault for choosing loony people to do the backdrop for such an auspicious occasion. Our class is full of lunatics, especially the front row (which includes me). Were the ones that keep the class alive and twitching.

Exams are in 3 weeks and I'm still not preparing.... Haha~

Wootness!!

Wootness!!! 3 more days to go till the holidays!!

Thoughts

We as students are expected to be well mannered, polite, punctual and all that nice crap that our teachers are always telling us. But what about the teachers? Don't they need to be well mannered? Polite? Punctual? Don't these rules apply to them as well? As educators of the next generation, don't they have to set the bar for us and be good examples for the leaders of tomorrow?

They tell you that you have to greet any teachers that you meet and yet they do not return the greeting. I never knew that grunting was a greeting as well. They tell you that you have to be on time to school and yet they come into class about half an hour late. Does that qualify as punctual. They tell you that you have to be considerate of others and yet they expect you to be there to tend to their every needs when it suits them. We have stuff we need to do too! They expect you to finish all your assignments and projects saying that it's your responsibility, and yet they never finish marking the books you handed in 3 months ago!

How do you expect students to respect you when you don't even set a good example for us to follow?

Recent studies have shown that students, the teens, are looking for someone that they can look up to. A confidant in which they can put their trust into. If they can't find a role model in their home, they look to their teachers. But what if they can't find it in their teachers either.

I didn't have to look far for a role model. My family is full of great role models. I look up to my brothers and parents, feeding on their stories and experiences. I learn from them, as I would like to learn from my teachers. Though, all I've learned is that life is hard and that people like them don't make it any easier for the rest of us.

Maybe I should thank them?

I've learned to deal with all their idiocy. Their quirks. Their bad habits. They've made me somewhat patient.

At least now I'm better at ignoring idiots.

Finally!

Finally!
It's the end of gempur! I've been anticipating the moment the bell rings and the day is over! XD Haha...... I have been studying like mad for this test, but it looks like I will fail anyway... Stupid Add Maths... Also, Chemistry was hard.... :/


Though not as hard as Add Maths... I skipped so many questions and screwed so many that when I was done I knew that I would fail. It was the most horrible feeling to have when you finish a test. The inevitable is coming and there is nothing you can do about it... I think our whole class would be hearing from the teacher how dumb we are next week. Yes, that's right.... There are many others in our class unable to cope with the huge mind numbing formulas and reasoning's of add maths... It lightens the pain a bit, knowing that you're fellow classmates are also suffering as you are... Haha~

It is fact that add maths is hard, and it's also a fact that I hate everything to do with maths... Maths and I are like oil and water and I'm the water, always stuck underneath the slick layer of oil that's slowly suffocating me. If I had a choice, I would definitely drop the subject and pay attention to the other science subjects. But the truth of the matter is that I have no choice. This murderous subject is compulsory for all science stream students... Frik you ADD MATHS!!!

Though, the upside is still the fact that now I have loads of free time to spend on the computer. Writing mindless ramblings to my hearts content. Next week, on Saturday, is the start of school holiday! Muahahaahaha!!! Even more free time to ramble!

Worries

ISH...

I'm feeling really crappy these last few days... It's so stressful being a student.... And the teachers aren't making it any easier either... Well, it's not like I'm expecting that things are going to become simpler as I age, it's just going to get harder and harder. Frik la~

Also, to add to my worries, I'm going to have Gempur next week. Damn tests... The worst thing is, when I'm supposed to be studying, I'm here, online... Writing a blog entry. How dumb am I?

I haven't even studied enough yet... I'm tired of studying... I just wanna lie down in bed and enjoy my books, which I never seem to be able to finish by the way. It's hard to be a teenager and balance your life and school. You can't have both, you have to chose either one. Well, in my case at least. I can't pay attention to both, it's too stressful...

Well I'd better go and study my ass off... Stupid Bio so many chapters... Stupid Add Maths... SO hard...

^^ News~~~

Hmm.... It's been a while, and a lot has happened in the past week... Of course, there are some good news and bad news... Not much good news though I'm afraid... :(

BAD NEWS

• I'm gonna be having Gempur in like less than 2 weeks? I'm not even sure when it is... I it's gonna be on the 6th of August... Crap....
• Bible Knowledge is one of the subjects
• Add Maths might be from chapter 1-8?
• Biology might be from 2-6?

GOOD NEWS

• The international exchange program is confirmed and going to be in USA, India and Japan. I'm definitely going to Japan, though I think I have a 32% chance of actually being able to go... :/
• I passed my add maths test... Just luck...

wow... only two good news... How damn sad is that? -.-

More updates soon~^^

Schedule

We just got our new schedule last Friday. It was horrible! I swear that the teachers are trying to torture us to death.

What bothers me is Friday on our new schedule... And Thursday. God, this is so unfair.... Our school is going to start block teaching next week. Which means that we have one less subject a day than before... I can live with Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday but Thursday and Friday is like a marathon around the world! I've never seen a worse schedule in my life! Thursday, I thought that we were going to have 4 subjects only, one less than before! But instead we have one more than before. We even have to take CIVIC after school!

I honestly don't get why the government wants us to take Civic when its actually quite identical to Moral Studies?!!! Are they just trying to give us teens a hard time? Its ridiculous... Absolutely ridiculous... Plus I have tuition to attend after school.... They don't expect me to rush back home do they?!!! STUDENTS HAVE LIVES TOO!!!!

If only we're allowed to go on strike... Too bad our school rules & regulations say that anyone who does go on strike will be suspended until further notice... I still remember that... I looked it up because I really hated me school before... And now.... I hate it even more...

We're the only ones that have so many subjects.... It's stupid... And EST.... I want to drop it. I am honestly not interested.... The teacher doesn't catch my attention and the classes are like English classes... I don't NEED English classes!

On Friday, we have Physics, Biology, Malay and Chemistry in one whole day... Then after school, we have EST! GRR.... We have all 4 science subjects in a damn day! Are they trying to short circuit our brains?

I'm really pissed with my school now...

So NOISY!

After sitting down in my room today, with the fan turned off, I just sat in silence listening to the sounds around me. I never really stopped to appreciate the silence and peace that static musty air gives you. I live in a world full of noise and so do you, but usually, like anyone else who has a life, we ignore the sounds around us. The honks, bonks, crash, bangs, bumps and clangs of life.

I felt peaceful lying down on my bed looking at the ceiling. It was so quiet, I swear that I could hear the air moving in and out of my ears. I was also quite surprised at how tolerant I was, how tolerant everyone was with all the noise. In school, I am bombarded with hundreds of sounds. Teens gossiping, teachers scolding, construction, traffic on the road, screams, laughs, giggles, scraping and all the like. At home, I have an array of sounds coming from all the animals. I have a cat, 3 dogs including 5 whining puppies and a noisy scraping hamster. Not forgetting the TV and all that music blasting from my headphones into my ears too! It's like sound pollution heaven, and that's only in Sandakan! I wonder how bad the pollution would be in New York... That, definitely could cause hearing damage.

Heck, with all this noise, I wouldn't be surprised that when I'm old and probably crippled, I'd be at least half deaf. Or worse case scenario I'd be legally deaf by 50.

Anyhow, from now on I would definitely look after my ears. Without them, I might not be able to appreciate the beauty of music, which has become one of my obsessions. And as a teen, that would be like giving an innocent a life sentence. So, I'll lower the TVs volume, less head phone time and if possible bring ear plugs to school.

Who left the tables out?!

It's Monday. The very first day of the week. I get to school early in the morning to find some of the tables arranged together with some chairs outside my class. So in my mind I'm going, "What the heck?" I enter the classroom to find that the early birds have already claimed some of the chairs and tables that were left in the class as their own. Making the classroom look quite bare in places where there were no tables.

After arranging my row of tables I went about my business as usual, its like only 6.00 am. School doesn't start till 6.45 am. Yes, we do get up ridiculously early just to go to school. In my opinion, I think it's inhumane, the students living in Sabah have to wake up earlier to leave for school... Anyway, slowly the class starts to fill up with noisy students. Each having their own personal voice decibel. Pretty soon, I wasn't able to hear myself think. As was the tradition of our class.

Then, the bell rang, signifying the start of the school day and also the start of our Monday morning assembly. Which all the students, including me despite being a prefect, were dreading. I swear they were all walking abnormally slow when the time came to enter the hall. You should see them during recess, they run like its the end of the world.

End of assembly, and everyone reluctantly go back to their classes. I enter my class and see the tables still outside. Nobody had bothered to even help with lifting the tables despite the giant gaps in the middle of the classroom. Of course, I was one of them. Not proud of it by the way, but I have now realised that my class is full of self centered, hypocritical people who don't help without being asked. Once I realised this, I immediately went outside and began hauling the tables inside while shaking my head.

Out of the 45 people in my class, not one had stood up to help carry the tables. Instead, all of them refused to even take notice and just went about their noisy business.

I have no idea where this type of attitude came from. All I know is that I'm really surprised at the students of 4A.

Homework blues

Just as I had feared, the grass is NOT greener on the other side. In fact, there is no other side. Or so it seems.

Since I have just gotten back from the state level debates competition, reality struck me that I have just missed a whole week of school! I am already behind in my studies because of drama and now I'm more behind than ever. In fact, if there was another word worse than behind I would be that word.

Also, I have just seen the mountain of homework that was waiting for me. I swear my arm is going to ache for a week. But I guess I'm not really one to complain, there are others in my class that have it worse than I do...

God, I hate school.

Rivals or Friends?

I recently arrived back from Kota Belud yesterday. I was there along with 5 other students and a teacher for the State level English Style Parliamentary Debates 2008. We managed to place 3rd out of the 6 schools that participated. I'm happy and completely satisfied with our achievement. We went against last years National champs from Kota Kinabalu. Honestly, I thought that they were going to be really stuck up and mean. Just like a school where I'm from. The students think that they are above everyone, I'm guessing that this mindset is the cause of their early downfall when they met our school during the preliminary rounds. Muahahaha!
Anyway... The KK people were really friendly. After they mercilessly slaughtered us during the semi-finals we actually got together and made friends! And to think, before this we were really scared of them. We were literally petrified actually! Haha!
Guess it really goes to show that you can't judge a book by its cover!